written from the soul

To make you proud

I'm lost in a world of possibilities
Settling for one
Not knowing what I truly desire
My mind begs me to remain logical
While my heart tells me to stop
I feel like a side character in my own novel
Facing an inner conflict
As i continue my path down a script
Following what everyone wants me to do
Just to make them happy
But is it worth risking my own happiness?
Do I really want to follow a script, because it seems like the safest option?
The logical side of me says yes
I have a fear that taking another path would only lead to disappointment
Disappointment among my peers most of all
Call me a people pleaser or any other name
But deep down I am still that small child
Who sits alone, begging for attention... for someone to be proud.
Oh what I would do now...
If I could just make you proud.
Even if i have to risk my desires, my hopes, my dreams
I would settle for you
To make your eyes gleam
That would be an accomplishment to me