Love Is Ǝvil

19 I Woke Up In A Dream State

Early morning sunlight was shining through the curtains. Marshall buried his face deeper into his pillow, the bed was so warm and comfortable right now. Couldn't he just stay here? The pleasant weight of an arm lay across his back and as he nestled closer to the body next to him, he let out a deep humming noise. God, he had forgotten how nice this was. He opened one eye and saw the outline of Nicolas's face right beside him. Strands of black hair falling onto his face, the usually furrowed brows smoothed into an expression of melancholy, the thin lips slightly parted, teasingly, invitingly. It was too early and too cozy for inhibitions and he just gave in to his impulses. He leaned forward and placed a soft kiss on them, savored the tingling they caused. Fondly his fingertips stroked over the other's jawline, feeling the pale skin underneath. He could get used to waking up like this.

The hand on his back pulled him closer, the lips answered his kiss slowly and still a bit sleepy. Their bodies now touched with every patch of skin, so close he felt Nicolas's chest raise with every breath. Warmth radiated from the scarred body and made the whole world feel like a summer afternoon. As if the sun itself was beneath the skin, warming and pacifying the disorder of Marshall's mind. Right now, he let it.

Their legs tangled themselves up, trying to pull each other even closer, to feel even more. Again this deep, satisfied humming purred in Marshall's throat as their groins connected. Nicolas's half hard cock rubbed against his skin, causing a short but rousing tremor to sizzle through his limbs.

The thin lips, now awoken, kissed him deep and the tongue teased him by exploring his mouth but evading his own that so desperately wanted to be danced with. Marshall leaned more into the kiss and sighed at the savoring movements the other employed, seemingly to discover everything that there was about Marshall's lips and tongue and mouth to be known. As if this was the most important thing in the world right now.

On his back Nicolas's hand moved with slow strokes, caressing the skin and sometimes pressing his fingertips into the hard muscles, tracing the bones of Marshall's shoulder blades and his vertebrae and his ribs. Rough skin scraped his own. With all the time in the world, the hand moved down, careful to map every inch of his back.

A pinch into his ass cheek.

Marshall moaned low between their lips. Immediately he felt his own arousal rise and press against the body that was too close. His first impulse was to push himself away and his fingers clawed into the muscular chest. But he didn't want to ruin it again. He wanted Nicolas to like him. This man was not just sexy and hot and tasted too good to pass up, no, this man was also fast and dirty crawling through Marshall's defenses. The thought that somebody could like him in this way and the way Nicolas sounded closing the distance between them despite the short time they've had so far, it made Marshall miss the feeling of being loved. He could almost imagine this feeling, but without real reference points it was but an echo in the hollows of his chest. Perhaps, so a small voice said almost inaudibly, perhaps Nicolas was the one person who could love him. After all, wasn't there supposed to be one such person for everyone? Surely, just one person in the vastness of humanity could be able to love him? He hoped to God, this wasn't impossible.

He hated to be alone. And Nicolas made it seem like they could actually be together. Like he wouldn't care about the troubles that plagued Marshall's mind, sometimes even trying to ease them and it almost felt like he might be able to. That his mean grin was what Marshall had needed to find happiness in. He didn't even know what that meant.

His body tensed nonetheless. His breath shook as he exhaled deeply, but their lips still close together. There had been many things in his life he had done without wanting them, there had been many people he had been with and not felt remotely this thrilled - this should come so easy. Why wasn't it?