The Way You See Me

Mason (11)

I wake up to the vampire diaries still playing on TV, I look at the clock to see it's two in the morning.

Relief washes over me as I realize I can still sleep before school.

I still check my phone though, my heart nearly drops as I see that Mason has viewed my story.

I completely forgot I still had him on instagram, since he didn't like my picture of me with rosy.

I calm my heart down, he only saw it. He didn't reply to it.

That gives me a somewhat relief.

I fall back asleep after that, and this time wake up at the time my alarm goes off.

My phone going off makes me wish I had never woken up today.

It's a message from Mason.

Mason: where are you? Why haven't you been answering Lana's calls? And who is that guy on your story?

I hate him so much! He has the nerve to text me just because i haven't been answering Lana.

News flash! I hate you both! I ignore his message.

I was just starting to forget about him.

I start to get ready for school, my phone goes off again with messages from Mason.

I can't believe a few months ago, I felt so safe in his arms.

Or how scared I was of coleson when in reality Mason was the real villain in my story.

Coleson did physically hurt me a few times but Masons betrayal hurt more than a few punches ever did.

I get filled with so much anger towards them both, towards everyone in my old life.

Towards my mom, Mason, Lana, and Cole. I hate them, besides my mom. For her I just feel anger for what she put me through for three years.

I forgave her because she's my mother, but I don't have to forgive everyone else.

I don't forgive Mason and Lana, maybe not even Cole.

He's the one who gave me the pictures, but I already knew our relationship was over the moment I tried to kill myself.

And I guess a part of me didn't care since I went through with it.

I want to be different, someone new. But how can I be someone else when they've caused damage to me?

I have to let go of it all but I don't know how to.

Everything that has happened to me has always lingered in some way.

It's never been completely gone.

Aunt Jules is already at the table drinking her coffee while she scrolls through Facebook.

"Good morning" i greet her as I grab a coffee for myself.

"Hey sweetheart, good morning" she says sitting her coffee down.

"How's school been?" She asks me.

I shrugged my shoulders "it's been good so far" i say leaning onto the counter.

"What about cheerleading?" She asks intrigued.

"It's going good! We're practicing for our rally next month and our first football game!" I say excitedly.

She smiles "let me know what date it is ahead of time so I can go cheer you on!" She says getting up from her chair.

"I will!" I say sitting my cup in the sink after I down my coffee.