The Way You See Me

Party (14)

"All this time I'd thought we were strangers, and it turned out we knew each other intuitively, in our bones, in our blood. It was kind of romantic. Catastrophically romantic."-Gillian Flynn, Gone Girl

"What is it?" He asks

"A-A couple of months ago, In April i tried to kill myself" i told him, looking away from him.

When i don't hear anything from him, I look back at his face.

His face holds a shocked expression.

"My mental health went bad and I tried to do it because everything was so overwhelming that I couldn't breathe" I continued.

"My dad and brother had passed away when I was in freshmen year, my mom turned to drinking and in return she would hit me because she blamed me for the accident"

Everything comes spilling out of me as if i drunk a truth spill or something.

"And when i was in the hospital after I had tried to kill myself, my ex boyfriend and my cousin kissed" it just keeps coming out.

But that was it. I told him everything, to give him a chance to run if he wants.

"I'm telling you all this so you can back out now if you want" i tell him looking away from him.

He pulls me to him, forcing my face to turn to him.

I look at him, in his face.

"I'm not leaving you, I told you wanted to draw stars around your scars and that's what I'm going to do" he says, "I won't ever leave you"

"Your stuck with me whether it's as a best friend or boyfriend or acquaintance or whatever you want but I won't leave you"

He says making me want to cry.

"That guy was an asshole for ever leaving you, you are the most amazing caring person I've ever met" he says adding more.

I start to tear up and I feel him pull me into his lap.

I cry on his shoulder as he runs his hand through my hair.

We stay like this for a little while until my sobs quiet down.

"I will always be by your side Stells" he says so sincerely.

I believe him. I might be stupid for believing him but I do.

I wipe the rest of my tears off, and smile.

"Let's go to the party?" I say, he laughs a little but nods.

He drives me home so I can get ready and tells me he'll pick me up at 8.

I still have a couple hours to kill, but I get started on my makeup.

I wash off the one I had earlier, half of it was already off anyways from my crying session.

After that I applied my moisturizer and get started.

I feel nervous about going to a party, I haven't been to one since the party I hung out with Mason.

Thinking about it makes my stomach upset.

I block the memories from my mind and play my Taylor swift playlist.

Instantly making me feel better, I sing and dance around as I get ready for the party.

Dancing and singing makes me realize I haven't done it in a while, that maybe things are looking up again.

Once I'm done with everything I sit back and watch the vampire diaries.