Vie asked Kayla, Nico, and I if we wanted to be their wedding party. I kinda thought about saying no. But instead, like an idiot I asked "me?" And Vie acted like it was the most obvious thing... I mean I was in the group text but I kinda thought it was an accident. And of course Kayla accepted immediately. And Nico accepted with the promises of alcohol. And my response was "I thought you hated me" they tried to reassure me that they don't hate me. And that they're sorry they made me think they did. I said they never talk to me anymore and they tried to assure me that they don't talk to anyone. But I know they talk to Kayla because that's how I hear things. Like when Vie got engaged. And when they graduated. And everything. I hate being the only person not knowing things.
Vie's wedding is at camp which I think is so stupid because not even their mom or brother come. Some of my kids can't go and it makes me want to go even less. How can you just have a wedding at camp when there are people that you love that can't go.
Mary asked me to come to her dance party, I had to tell her that I couldn't. I couldn't get out of bed. I could barely move. She thought about who else she could ask and finally settled on Patroclus. She said that could have the biggest cuddles ever later. She's so nice to me even when I'm the worst dad.
Pretty much all I do is cry.
