Today I willingly got out of bed. For the first time in a week. Literally I hadn't willingly gotten up since easter. I got out of bed, and I took a shower. I still havent eaten. But baby steps I guess.
I wonder if Kayla hurt herself because of me.
She relapsed.
I'm scared that if she keeps relapsing, then Eleanor will relapse and that will kill livi. Or livi will encourage her to kill herself. I don't know if she thinks that it will help Eleanor like her again. But I think if Kayla dies then I think Eleanor would blame livi. I really do.
