Tomorrow.
Tomorrow is the day I get to get married in front of everyone I care about.
Well, almost everybody. Kayla won't get to be there. She's still in the hospital after her new roommate attacked her. Fucking Empousa. I don't know if vie will be there or dad. But it is what it is.
Our wedding vase came yesterday afternoon completely shattered. I hope it's not bad luck. We're going to buy a new one today.
I don't think Mary and Noel really understand why Nico and I are getting married again. I don't think a lot of people do. But a lot has changed in our lives. Last time was so rushed and so small and it didn't really represent us. This wedding, everything down to the buttons on my tux is a planned detail representing us. Nico even said that it didn't even feel like a real wedding. But to me it did. Gods I love him. More than any other person in the entire universe. I found my vows from before I'm going to use them again somehow. You would think with all the time I spent just sitting and staring at the walls and ceiling that I would've remembered to write my vows but honestly I was trying not to think of the wedding because then I would get stressed and I would cry and then I'd be even more stressed because I was crying. So now it's less than 24 hours before the wedding and I haven't written anything. In Ancient Greece they only said one thing together "Έχω ξεφύγει από το κακό, βρήκα το καλύτερο" which roughly translates to I have fled the bad and found the better which I think describes what I have found in Nico perfectly. The better. He makes me better. He makes me the best version of myself. At least he sees the best possible version of me. Recently, I've been struggling a lot with my body. Especially the parts between my neck and knees. And sometimes I just can't get naked. Someday I even shower with a shirt on. It's funny that the scars I made are the ones I'm most ashamed of. And somehow Nico puts up with me staying half dressed and having the lights off and me begging him not to look at me. While I'm asking him not to look at me he's reassuring me that I'm amazing and beautiful and every other positive adjective. Nico finds the good in me even when I can't. He loves me regardless of all the negatives. He loves me regardless of all my flaws. And he scratches my back at night to help me go to sleep. He's everything I could ever look for in a forever partner. And who knew that I could find it in the son of hades.
