Estelle is dead.
That means my grandchild is dead.
Nico wouldn't let me go.
I was too upset and kept ending up in the wrong place.
The last place I ended up was a potato farm in Idaho.
Nico had to come get me.
James will never be okay.
Ollie is not okay.
I haven't seen Percy but he was already not okay.
I failed James.
He's going to kill himself.
Then everyone is going to die.
Everyone I love is going to kill themselves.
