Nico is still ignoring me. I need to talk to him. I need to feel validated. And I'm not. James thinks I hate him. I don't. I'm just angry and upset and disappointed. I don't know if I can do this anymore.
I told all my kids how much I love them. I apologized to my dad for being an ass. I hope he actually forgives me. I kissed Nico and I walked out the door. No coat. No blanket. Nothing. I didn't even have shoes on. About a quarter mile from the house there's a grove. I'm sitting there. It's snowing. I'm soaked. I've almost stopped shivering. It's not even that cold anymore. If you're reading this I'm probably dead.
