Grandpappy's truck is here. I feel kinda bad not getting up when nico asked me to, but i aslo kinda don't i wish he would've just told me what it was. I feel like absolute shit i can barely function and the only thing i've eaten since sunday is a single bite of some kind of cookie nico made. He really should not. He still won't tell me why he went to maine though and it's frustrating me to no end. He said tomorrow but who knows. Until i know what he was really doing, it feels like he was cheating. Even though he swore on the styx, it still feels like he was there cheating.
Kayla came earlier and jumped on my bed until i fell out and then she drug me into the bathroom and into the shower. I sat there fully clothed for like 5 minutes. She said it would make me feel better, but it didn't.
