Take My Hand (Thomas Brodie Sangster)

Part 12 Thomas

I happily head down, holding her hand as we went down to her cabin. "It uhh it's not much but" she began shifting some of her things around, the cabin wasn't much a small sink, a sofa and a bunk bed her cases sat around
"Its nice, cosy" I reassured her
"I imagine your cabin is far more impressive"
"bigger. but I like this its nice"
We sat on the small sofa together and continued to chat just as freely as we had at dinner I found her so easy to speak with without having to mind my P's and Q's or worry about my tone or what I could and couldn't say depending on whom I was talking too, I could just talk with her she even laughed at my sick jokes not in a polite way often laughing so much her face went red or scrunched up in a way a lord's lady never would.
"Won't you're father worry about you?"
"He might," I shrug throwing my jacket to the side "I'm doing my best to avoid him"
"Fair enough, I never did ask why are you going to new York?"
"My fathers opening a new batch of his business. He needs to shake some hands, cut some ribbons sort of thing"
"What about you?"
"He didn't give me a choice. I had to come with him. And… last night he dropped on me I'm getting married."
"What?'
'married. He waited till last night to tell me so I couldn't get out of it she's waiting in new York apparently"
"You ever met her before? Even spoken?"
"Never."
"Makes last night make more sense'
'its been building for a while, guess it all just kinda came to a head last night. I can't thank you enough for helping me… and I'm so happy I met you" I smiled gently taking her hand
"I couldn't just leave you, but I'm very happy we met too Thomas" she smiled "do you want to marry her?"
"Not at all." I Admit "what about you? Why are you going?"
"A new start. A Lot of ghosts back home finally time I make a break on my own."
"All on your own?"
"Knowone to take with me"
"... Would you take me with you?"
"Humm?"
"If I could, go with you I mean. Would you let me?"
She smiled "you wouldn't want to be with me"
"You don't know what I want. If it's between you and some mystery woman my dad picked out. I'd pick you over and over again'
"Ohhh" she blushed, "you'd be more than welcome to come with me. If you could"
"I wish I could. I really do like you y/n. I've never felt this connected to anyone before."
"I feel that way too," she smiled squeezing my hand a little
"Y/n. Would you forgive me, if I kissed you?"
"Ohhh well uhh" she blushed hard fixing her hair "in what way?"
"In a romantic way?"
"I would" she nods "I would forgive you, if you did it again"
We both laughed and For a moment there was silence between us I held her hand softly stroking her skin she started down at the sofas fabric nervously so I picked her chin up unable to control my smile before closing the gap and softly pressing my lips to her soft lips she kissed back softly even if I pulled away merely a moment later enough to see her face and she smiled as widely as me I gently batted my nose against hers which made her giggle a little but close the gap between us pressing her lips to mine.
I don't think I'd ever been so happy.
I never wanted it to end.
After a while of our little kisses we both put some space between us
"I uhh I should let you get some rest"
"Of course, I don't want to keep you"
I gathered my things slipping my jacket back on "so we still good for tomorrow?'
"Absolutely" she smiled giving me a kiss as we stood
"I can't wait" I smiled giving her a long kiss before I headed out of her cabin.
I knew I was red but I didn't care I went back to my suite seeing he was back and fast asleep in his bed so I snuck into my room and got into bed grabbing my pillow to pull it down to cuddle in my cosy warm bed "I wish I was with you tonight my little angel" I whispered giving my pillow a kiss imagining her here with me to cuddle up with.
I woke to an immediate feeling of agony as I landed on the hard floor o thought perhaps the ship had tossed me out of bed or something but the quick kick to the stomach quelled that idea
"You little shit!"
"What!"
"I have eyes all over this ship you little shit" he yelled "out with some people you met. What's her name"
"What?'
"What's her god damn name!'
"Who!"
"The girl you were cuddling up at dinner with last night"
"What do you care"
"I care who the hell she is. And why you feel it's appropriate bearing in mind I have already told guests on this ship about your engagement that you can go snuggling up with some girl!"
"What the hell do I care what you think!"
"You know what, fine. Act up all you god damn want as soon as we arrive your not my problem anymore. Just stop making a scene and causing talk" he demanded heading back to his room "and if your going to fuck some third class whore do it in privet so I don't have to explain your bullshit." He says lighting a cigarette "enjoy her. That's your one taste of freedom before we get to new York"