You're safe with me

One step forward two steps back

I get up leaving the room and walking up to Chan's closed door knocking softly. "Come in.", he speaks loudly to which I open the door slowly. Upon entering I see Chan sitting in his desk chair facing me. "Oh, hi Baby. Is everything alright?", he asks my nerves driving me crazy. "Can we talk?", I ask quietly and for a second I worry about rather he even heard me. But when he gets up coming towards me I'm pretty sure he did. "Of course, what's wrong?", he asks and I just look down. He guides me to the bed, so we could sit down. "What's going on? Did something happen?", he questions and I try to think of something to say. I realise I should have taken some time to think about this before talking to him. "You know, this all just happened so fast. Two weeks ago we didn't even kiss and now... I just feel so overwhelmed. And on top of that I just found out that Jisung knows about us.", I say voice shaking. "I guess what I trying to say is that I just wasn't prepared for this.", I say close to a panic- attack now. Chan hugs me pulling me as close as possible. "Why didn't you say anything? I never meant to push you, I should've realised things were moving too fast.", he says and I feel terrible seeing him blame himself. "It's not your fault. How would you've known?", I respond which makes him look down at me. "It's obvious our relationship was progressing too quickly especially considering what a hard time you have with trust. I should have waited longer, made sure you're truly ready.", "Please don't blame yourself, it's really not your fault. I should have just said something but instead I kept quiet not wanting to make you wait any longer.", I explain and I could swear there's a tear in his eye. "I would've happily waited a bit longer if that's what it would've taken for you to feel ready. You don't need to feel as though you're leading me on in any way. I really don't see it that way, to me it's more like giving you the time you need because I know it'll be worth it.", he says and I'm confused my his statement. "What do you hope to get out of this that has you willing to wait for so long?", I ask and he pulls away to look into my eyes. "You. All I

hope to get by waiting and giving you time is you. Your happiness your love and most importantly I hope to get to a point where you can trust me without a doubt. I know that it'll take time and patience and I'll have to invest a lot of energy into proofing that you can trust me but I'm willing to do that because your trust and love is worth more than all the money and fame in the world.", he tells me with tears in his eyes so I pull him into a tight hug almost crying myself.

A/n: Sorry for the short update but school was really stressful lately so I didn't really have time to write.