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"Thank you.", I whisper lowly so even I can barely hear myself. " Just please talk to me. I want you to be able to enjoy these moments, to feel safe and taken care of, not to push yourself because you feel like you have to.", he explains in a soft tone, pulling back. "I'm trying but I just want you to be happy.", I tell him and he sighs. "I am happy! I just want you to be happy as well.", he says and I can tell he's frustrated even though he's trying
his best to hide it. "Sorry I'm making everything so complicated.", I say lowering my head. "It's fine. We're just going to have to take the time to make you understand you're boundaries are important and you have the right to communicate them without always looking out for everyone else.", he speaks calmly seemingly having regained his composure. "Do you feel comfortable with working through what happened now or do you need time to think about it first?", "Can you give me just an hour or two?", I ask nervously and he smiles. "Of course! Take all the time you need.", he responses and I get off his bed leaving the room.

Chan's pov
I try to get back to work the conversation with Seungmin not leaving my mind, making it hard to focus. 'How did I not realise he was uncomfortable? Was I really that inattentive this whole time?' I decide to give up since I know I won't get any work done as long as things aren't sorted out. This leads to me just sitting there wondering when Seungmin started feeling this way and if there are ways I could've prevented it from happening. After what felt like forever there's a soft knock on the door and I go to open it.
Seungmin is standing in the doorway obviously anxious. I step aside signalling for him to come in. "Have a seat.", I say softly waiting for him to do so before sitting down across from him. "Are you nervous?", I ask, already knowing the answer but wanting him to express his emotions. "Yeah...", he answers slowly, looking down. I feel bad for him knowing how hard this must be. "It's alright. Just know you can be honest with me but I'm not going to force you to tell me something.", "Okay.", he says, slowly looking back up. "So, when did you start feeling uncomfortable with what we were doing?", I question. There is a moment of silence and he seems hesitant with his answer. I wait patiently not wanting to pressure him. "A-a-after the m-massage.", he stutters and I feel a wave of guilt coming over me. I should have asked more than once. I know he doesn't like telling people 'no', I should have asked at least once more. "I'm sorry Baby.", I say using pet names again, now that I know that wasn't what made him feel this way. I can actually see his body relax slightly at my words. "I should've known that was too much for one day.", I say looking at him. "How about we take a step back then, give you some more time with that?", I continue, earning a small nod. "Can I stay with you tonight?", to say I'm surprised by his words is an understatement since I expected him to maybe need some space. I guess my surprise is written all over my face because he immediately back tracks. "It's okay if you don't want me to, sorry that was stupid.", he babbles and I step in right away. "No! I want you to I was just taken aback because I expected you to need some space for now. I'd be happy to have you with me though.", I assure him and I can see a small smile tugging at his lips. I'm glad to see him happy and it has me let go of all worries I had earlier. "Since it's still pretty early, how about we go eat something first and then I was going to get some work done so you can do what ever you want.", I say getting up and offering my hand to him in order to help him up as well. He takes it so I pull him to his feet and we leave the room together.

Seungmin's pov
We make our way down-stairs, while walking I can feel Chan carefully putting his arm around my back and I get wired burning tingles where he touches me. It's not uncomfortable just unfamiliar so I don't stop him. Entering the living-room I see Hyunjin and Felix seemingly watching a movie together, Felix cuddled up in Hynjin's arms with his head resting against his shoulder. Felix looks over at us with a smile. "Hey guys, how are you doing?", "Good, we were just about to make some food?", Chan answers smiling back. "Do you really think it's a good idea to have you two use an oven or even worse a stove?", he says laughing. Chan gives him an offended look making me chuckle. " Not funny!", he looks at me pouting which results in all four of us bursting into laughter. "I'm really not that bad.", he tries again still laughing. "What ever you say just don't burn down the kitchen.", Felix replies turning his attention back to the TV. Chan walks into the kitchen pulling me with him, opening the fridge. He pulls out a pack of chicken, peppers, peas and a lemon. He puts everything on the counter before rushing to get more stuff. He ends up with rice, olive oil, salt, pepper, paprika powder and a container of vegetable broth powder, along with the things he already had laid out. "What are you making", "Rice stir-fry with chicken. Haven't you had it before?", I shake my head to which he looks at me with pure disbelief. "No way! It's literally so good, how have you managed to go 22 years without ever trying it?", I shrug. "I don't know I guess no one ever made it for me before and I never thought of making it.", I explain and suddenly there is a big smile on his face. "I'm sure you'll love it!", he says excitedly, getting a cutting board and a knife out of the co-responding drawers. "Could you please wash the peppers real quick?", I nod with a smile. After washing my hands first, I grab the vegetables holding them under cold water for a few seconds before placing them in front of Chan. He starts cutting, making sure to get the stem off seeds out first before dicing everything nicely. "Is there anything else I could do to help? I feel kind of awkward just watching.", I admit and he like I'm a puppy eyes filled with adoration. "If you really want to help you can wash and cut the chicken.", his voice sounds so soft flooding my body with a feeling of comfort and safety. "Alright.", I take the container pouring the liquid down the drain, before replacing it with water. I let it sit for a moment while getting a board and knife.

A/n: I'm sorry for not updating last week I honestly forgot😅🥲 There was just so much going on but to make up for it I'll be posting the next part within the next three days.
I hope you guys are having a nice day and enjoyed this new chapter.