You're safe with me

The next step pt. 2/2

Seungmin's pov
I lie down on my stomach while Chan is in the bathroom to get some massaging oil. My hart raising to the point where it almost gets hard to breath. It's not that I don't want this, I just feel really nervous and he knows that. So when he gets back he kneels down beside me on the bed setting the bottle aside. "Hey there.", he says smiling before noticing the fear that must be written all over my face. "It's okay. I won't do anything you don't feel comfortable with, you just have to tell me because last time I checked I'm not able to read your mind.", he lets me know which actually calms me down a bit. "Are you okay with me taking of your shirt?", he asks and I nod slightly. That results in him carefully pulling it over my head leaving my back completely exposed. I can hear Chan opening the bottle and spreading some of the oil on his hands, before feeling his warm hands on my skin. He softly starts working on my shoulder carefully pushing into the muscle. Once he moves a little lower he hits a sore spot making me hiss in pain. "Sorry Love.", he apologises before continuing. "I'm gonna try and release the tension so it might hurt for a bit but I promise it'll feel a lot better after.", he explains and I hum in understanding. He keeps working on the spot for a few minutes until it doesn't hurt anymore before moving on. At first my body is completely tense with nerves but after about ten to 15 minutes my body starts relaxing and after about an hour my body is fully relaxed. "How are you feeling?", he asks and I smile at him. "I'm great, this felt really nice.", I tell him and he smiles back. My 'problem' disappeared as well which is a relive because I don't think I'd be able to handle any more new experiences today. "I'm tired now.", I say turning on my side and I can feel Chan gently wrapping his arm around me from behind. "That's fine, we can just take a nap.", he says softly his breath hitting my neck sending shivers down my spine. Now I'm wide awake and all I can think about is the way his lips would feel on my neck. I try to ignore it to the best of my abilities but I can feel my skin heat up as beats of sweat start to form. As much as I don't feel myself quite ready for this I know that I might explode if I wait any longer. "Chan, I need your help.", I say nervously. "What with Baby? What's wrong?", he asks in a concerned voice turning me on my back. "I can't I need your help with this. Now! I feel like I'm about to combust.", I admit urgently. He looks at me in surprise and I can tell he's worried. "Are you sure you want this? I don't want you to feel rushed.", he tells me and I feel even more encouraged. "I do, I really want this I'm just a little scared.", I say honestly and he smiles at me. "That's okay, I can deal with that. I'll just make sure to take it slow and to tell you what I'm about to do before doing it. I want you to know that if the sound of anything scares you, you just have to tell me. Also if at any point you want to stop, I will stop immediately no questions asked.", he explains and hearing these words makes me feel really safe. I take a deep breath before looking at him. "Okay, let's try this.", I say feeling oddly calm. "Since I don't think me being above you or at your legs were you can't even really see me would do you any good, I suggest you lie down on my chest. This way you can feel me there with you and hopefully be more relaxed.", he says softly. "Okay.", I simply respond not really sure what else to say. "I'm just going to get some tissues and wipes, so I won't have to get up after.", he tells me before leaving the room. When he gets back I sit up so he can get behind me his legs on either side of my hips. I lean back onto his chest while he carefully places his hands on my lower stomach making my whole body tingle. "Take a deep breath for me.", he requests and I do as I'm told. "I'll start by just kissing down your neck to help distract your mind a little bit.", he says and I nod in response getting nervous now.

Chan's pov
I place my lips on his skin, making sure to be extra careful. I make my way down, avoiding leaving marks but still hearing faint whimpers every now and then. "How do you feel?", I ask pulling away. "Hot!", he answers shyly and I smile. "I'm going to slowly move my hand first and then pull down your trousers and pants, is that okay with you?", I ask needing clear consent. " Yeah, but I'm scared.", he lets me know and I can clearly hear it in his voice.
"It's okay to be scared, just try to relax. If you want to stop though just tell me. I promise I won't be upset it's already been a lot for you today.", I respond knowing how overwhelming this must be for him. I move my hand down lightly gracing his erection with my fingertips, which causes him to take a sharp breath and let go of another whimper. "Does that feel nice?", I whisper and he nods. I slowly pull down his trousers and pants to just above his knees keeping my hands there for a moment. Seungmin is whining from the cold air hitting his sensitive skin so I move to slowly start stroking him. I notice he's holding back moans and stop in my movement. "Baby, don't hold back it's okay. Let me hear you.", I mumble in his ear. He seems hesitant as if he's embarrassed of it in a way. "It's okay. There's no one here the only one that'll hear you is me.",that reassurance seems to be what he needed because he let's out soft moans once I start touching him again. I keep up my movement increasing the pressure and speed. After a few minutes his legs start shaking a little and he seems to panic. "What's wrong Baby, why are you scared?", I ask obviously worried since I want him to feel comfortable. " I feel like I'm about to fall.", he answers and I know exactly what he means. "It's gonna be alright I'll catch you, I promise.", I say trying to calm him down. I keep going and as expected he finishes just seconds later with the loudest moan yet, melting into my arms. "Are you okay?", I ask after a few seconds. "Yeah, thank you.", he says tiredly and I smile at him in pure adoration.