Cordelia

chapter 25~ I'm going

I dress up and go out of my room.

"Oh, look at you; are you going somewhere?" Samuel asks.

"No, actually, I want to help you make dinner." 

"You sure?" he asks, and I nod.

"Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, it will." I smile and say it will quietly.

And we started to cook.

"We made tacos," I tell others. We made a lot of them, so it took a few hours.

"Are you going somewhere?" Diego asks, because I'm so dressed up.

I sigh. Everyone takes their portion of tacos on their plate, but they don't take their eyes off of me; they're waiting for me to say something.

"Yes, I am going," I state.

"Where?" Dylan asks

"Is it a mission?"

" will you come late?" they ask.

"Hold on guys, I won't be coming back." I give them a sad smile.

"What?" Conor and Dylan asked.

"You're kidding, right?" Samuel said.

"Sorry, I just can't be here anymore."

"Well, this is our last dinner, so let's enjoy it."

"Can't we still be friends after you move away?" Connor asks.

"I mean, I have a plan right now; if I come out alive, I can still contact you guys, but you know that's only 'if." I wanted to sound like a joke so I could bring up the mood, but I failed.

After dinner ended, Miguel wrote down his phone number, so everyone knew it except for one person. I think we can guess who I'm talking about.

"When are you going again?" Dylan asks.

"Tomorrow morning," I tell him, and he nods.

I decided to go to sleep. I was very exhausted all day. We were talking with the guys, getting to know each other better. I know they were constantly trying to make me stay where I was going or what my plan was.

I hear a knock. "Come in," I say, and with no hesitation, he comes in.

"What are you doing here?" I ask Lee.

"Why are you moving?" He goes straight to the point.

"As I said before, I have a plan, and I also don't think that you would feel comfortable living with me," I inform him.

"Since when do you care about me feeling comfortable? You knew all about this from the very beginning, and you still stayed here."

I stand up and look straight into his eyes.

"Listen to me, I'm tired of playing games with you. I tried to explain, but you don't give a shit, so if you don't let me explain, don't blame me for the shit I didn't do." I scream at him.

He rolls his eyes and walks out.

I had a few attempts at falling asleep, but a few hours later I heard the main door open, and seconds later someone was knocking on my door. I told them to come in, and Samuel entered the room.

"Hey," I say.

"Hey," he smiles, "are you okay?" he asks.

"I should have asked you a while ago; you've been down lately. I know that you're settling in and going away. I just want to make sure you're not going to do something you know is unreasonable," he tells me.

"No, I'm fine." I hesitated to say it, but I finally got those words out of my mouth.

"Is it Lee?" he asks.

"Samuel, you really are the best person I have ever met." I try to change the subject.

"I feel the same about you."

"But from tomorrow on, I'm trying to start a new chapter of my life, and I just don't want to leave in a lie, and I wanted to tell you something about me." I'm going to tell him

"But I don't know if you want to be friends with me after this, or- and I-." I try to explain but fail.

"It's okay, just tell me and explain."

"Okay, listen, I have a plan. I will tell you everything. If you still, after all of those stories, want to be friends with me, you are free to tell others as well, but if you don't, I will understand and respect that."

"My father is Orson Esmaray; I'm his daughter. From an early age, I was sold by my father to someone called Fyodor. I think you know who that is, Fyodor Kalashnikov." He listens to me, not interrupting.

"I was sold to him by my father, and I was trained daily, but even though I was trained, it's just a fact that sometimes men are stronger than women; they're physically bigger, so I was constantly told that if I didn't come back with the information that we needed, I would have gotten punished." I swallowed hard.

"Punishments will be different, but it's the fact that it was very painful in every way. I was also told by Fyodor that if I couldn't get information by just men looking at me and me flirting with them, I should just give what every man craves for, and that's this." I pointed my finger up and down towards my body.

"I'm not sure how old I was when my father sold me, but I was working with him till I turned 17, and basically what happened was that I was at some client and couldn't get the information I needed, so that motherfucker raped me, and I came back to him with no information, and this time the punishment was different."

"I'm not sure if you know this, but I have an older brother and also have a younger sister. He kidnapped my younger sister and many other kids along with her, so I did what I had to; I leaked his location; I told everyone who he actually was and what he was doing with the children; and now he's literally the target of millions of gangs, but he's after only one person, and that's me."

"Well, fast forward to the end of that day. I didn't run away, and he was planning on bombing the place where the kids and me were. I tried to rescue my sister and the others, but not everyone could make it."  I didn't tell him that Lee's sister was also there and I couldn't save her. I don't want Samuel and Lee to fight because of me.

I look at him, and he doesn't say anything.

"It's okay, I know this is your revenge to take, but if you need help, just tell me okay," he offers. I nod and wipe away my tears.