Cordelia

chapter 37 ~ different versions

"where were you" I ask lee as he's doing something in the kitchen

"What do you mean" he turns around and asks

"I heard you went out last night" I remind him

"Don't worry, I made my man stand in fron of the house in case something was wrong" he comes out and hands me the smoothie

I take sip of it and see him staring "what"

"Is it good" I nod and I can read word 'proud' in his eyes

"We're going out " he then adds and I look at him annoyingly

"No" I state and look away

"Doctor said so" he then scoops me in his hand and take me to my bedroom where my closet it

He starts to take out outfits and showing it to me if I like them, after a while we settled down what I wanna wear, he walked out and I put on a shirt

I then call for him and see starts to help me with puting on shorts,

Lee hands me my crutches to help me walk and we go out.

"How are you feeling" he asks me with smile on his face, I look at him with narrowed eyes from sun hitting in my eyes

"How do you think I'm feeling" I say being frustrated

"Take a deep breath, fresh air, sun look around there's a grass"

"It's hot, sun is in my eyes, there are lots of people bonus to that is that it's noisy" I keep walking

"Wanna sit down" he offers and I immediately sit, and I don't think I'll be able to stand up from this chair

"You sat down like you been running for miles" he joked and I roll my eyes ignoring him

I look around seeing as kids act their age, I wish I was a kid, it must me fun, judging by how they smile and laugh

I jerk my head back and rest my eyes by closing them,

I sigh

"Are you in pain" I hear him ask

"No" I state

"Then-" I look at him and say "can you shut the fuck up for a minute" damn

He does what I told him few minutes later I decided to ask him "why are you here"

"To take care of you-"I cut him off, He's trying to avoid the real question

"Lee" I say his name and he understands that I'm serious

"I am sorry for what I did" he confess

"For sleeping with me" I question, I'm still not facing him, my head is jerked back resting on back of the chair

"Mostly for not listening" he admits "and for making you feel like..." He was lost for words for a second so I decided to give him a hand

"Whore" I question and I feel as his head snaps towards me

"Is that what I made you feel" he asks but I don't give him any answer

"Isn't it what you thought of me" I ask him not looking at him

"It's just makes me think how many people know different versions of me in their head some people know me as funny friends some people know me as crazy one maybe even but in your head im a prostitute But I'm okay with it, Because I would rather see my sister smile while being a prostitute then having a life without her"

"I understand because if I could do anything that saved my sister I would too"

"Sorry I couldn't save her" I wisper,

"What" he says out of sudden

"If you're here I guess someone will told you about everything I'm not sure which one was your sister because a lot of kids died that day" I tell him

"I understand, you couldn't do anything the building collapsed, you did your best" I feel as he gets closer to me so I look at him

"You're so beautiful" he wispers as he's looking at my lips, I look into his eyes and it's filled with desire, back then when we kissed while training

I feel him getting close and then he drops his head "I'm sorry" he says quietly "do you wanna walk or should we got home" he asks and I immediately said home

I got tired middle of walking so he took me home holding me in bridal style, I got changed and go back to my normal form, laying on a sofa

"I'm gonna cook" he says and I look at him confused

"You" I question and he nods "you know, you don't have to" I nervously smile, it's not that I don't wanna make him tired by cooking, i don't feel safe eating his food, he doesn't know how to cook shit

I don't wanna be his lab rat, "why you looking at me like that" he asks

"Nothin" I say as I look around,

God help us