Cordelia

chapter 41 ~ hate you

I can not believe my eyes, lee is making me breakfast, I mean I would just heat cereal or little burned grilled cheese, well that's what Lee could make, or I wouldn't eat because I wasn't hungry in the morning

But he's making me, full ass breakfast

"Since when do you know how to cook" I ask, it's not that he doesn't know how to make breakfast he does it just said it's always either burned to ashes, tasteless or my whole kitchen would be filled with smoke because he once again burned something.

"Learned" he simply answered

"When" I haven't seen him cook in my kitchen before so where?

"Don't worry about it, now taste it please" 

I take bite out of the egg which isn't burned and surprisingly isn't tasteless as well

Then bacon and then pancakes that doesn't have one side burned

"Wow, they taste really good, good job lee" I compliment him and he shyly smiles

"It's nothing" he turns around but I can feel him smile

After breakfast and taking my meds and thought how long has it been since I been on a mission, I mean I did retired for that job since I got rid of Fyodor

And I have no desire on going back.

"What are you thinking this deeply" I hear lee ask

"Nothing just wondering how long has it been since I haven't had any missions" I tell him

"Why you miss it"

"God no" I shook my head as I smile a little

"Then" he asks as he gets close to the couch and takes a seat

"Well after what happened, I thought my family might need protection and I should take care of one who did this to me"

"There's no need, your brother is a capable of doing it now, and once who did this to you are taken care of as well" I look at him having confused expression

"What do you mean" I ask

"I caught them, but don't worry I didn't do anything in case you wanted to take the avenge, but just say a word and they won't take another breath"

He did it for me?

"Why would you do that, I'm capable of doing it myself" I state

"I know, you are, but I needed to work fast so they wouldn't spread the word that you were harm and easy to be targeted" he says not looking at me but then his eyes shifts towards me

"And I want to make it up to you, I don't want you to have wrong ideas I don't want anything from you I know I do not deserve forgiveness, but I just want you to understand that I care for you" he explains

"And what I did was the worst thing I could do to a woman-" I cut him off and spoke

"You made me feel like a whore, you do understand that right" I ask him and look at him

He swallows hard and looks at me with guilt feeling his eyes "I know, once I calmed down but it was too late. I'm willing to do anything for you to just not to hate me"

I sigh and look into his eyes that are filled with shame "I don't hate you, because even though I wasn't in a same situation as you I would have probably have done the same"

I'm not sure what I should do, can our relationship be the same? But what if he hurts me again, if he did it once he can do it again.