can you keep a secret? (updated weekly)

between us?

i fell to the ground, numb. i cant believe i said that, i told someone, and not just anyone, Mason!

"please dont hate me i...i ...ah"i was sobbing, i couldnt contain it anymore. Mason was sitting next to me now, his jaw was so wide, why hasnt he run away? mason put his arm around me.

"i.. i dont hate you, we arent together, i.. i just didnt expect you to... who?" mason questioned. my sobs were uncontrolable now. i pointed to the feild directly to mitchel who was playing soccer.

"oh.. really?" mason asked comicaly, i giggled, finaly i looked up at him and realised he was crying to, not very hard, but it was their. i wrapped my arms around him.

"its going to be okay, ill be okay" i whispered into his ear as if i were telling him a secret.

"lets go, ill drive you home and we can talk about it alright?" he spoke, very reasuringly. i wasnt use to mason acting this caring, it was a massive character change.

i let him lead me to his car, snuggled underneith his arm, this was the first time since this pregnancy that i felt protected and cared for, i felt as though someone was their for me. Mason wrapped his big brown coat around me, it felt overwhelming on my small frame. we got to the car and mason tucked me into his chest while he opened the door, i sobbed quietly. when he pulled me away i swatted the tears away from my face, banishing them from the moment. mason helped me into the car and put my seatbelt on. he lent in and kissed my forhead, i jumped back, i was so startled, but mason brought his forhead to mine holding my face close to his

"i love every part of you, if half of you is in that child i love it aswell"

i melted, my tears fell sronger than ever and i crushed my lips into masons, strongly and passionatly. this time he was startled, his throat cleared and i could feel him smile during the kiss. in that moment i didnt care if he stuck around, i didnt care if he never spoke to me again, i needed this, i needed to know that he loved me and that, even if its a lie, he is supporting me.

we pulled apart and i grinned under his forhead, i looked up and saw him smiling aswell, his dark hair covering his eyes. he pulled away and flipped his hair, he pulled in and kissed me hard and quick before yanking away and closing the door. i brought my hands to my mouth to cover my smile and sunk low into my chair. nothing could have made me happier than that kiss, that love that he showed me. his door opened and he slunk into the drivers seat. mason started the car  keeping both hands sturdy on the wheel, he looked very consentraited on the road, i studdied him almost comicaly. i put my feet up onto the dashbord and the car pulled over. mason turned to me.

"put your feet down" he instructed

"oh.. im sorry i.. i didn think it was a problem" i stuttered, cleaning the dashbord with a tissue

"you dont have to clean it i dont care about the dashbord, for the next 10 minutes im in charge of two lives and if i make a mistake you could suffer, or worse the baby could"

he sat their staring forward, i sat up straight and tightened my seatbelt properly. 

"im ready" i smiled, mocking him but allowing him a small victory. he turned to me and held my hand, he smiled  and kissed my head 

"thankyou" he spoke before starting the car and driving. it started to rain and i swear mason drove so slow i could have walked next to us, by the tme we got to my house my parents were both home.

"hi mum! hi dad!" i yelled "masons here!" 

at that they ran out of the kitchen

"wh..why?" my mother stumbled 

"we have an art assignment to work on" i smiled, i was a very good lier when i had to be

"oh... okay" my dad spoke before dragging my mother back into the kitchen.

i pulled masons arm up the stairs and into my bedroom, a place he recognised quite well from when we dated

"your room looks exactly the same" he spoke, smiling at the thought. i sat on my bed studying masons movment around my bedroom, he traced the walls, and plucked at the strings on my guitar, he struck the chime i kept in the corner on the roof he had been here a thousand times but i have never seen him focus so hard, the artist in him studies everything, i admired his eye to detail. mason turned too me

"okay so what are we going to do?" his face almost humorous if it werent for the topic

"i was hopping you would know" i giggled 

"i want to help you, i want to be with you" he admitted

"i want to be with you too, but ... this baby, we cant"

"ill be their for you and the baby" he spoke gleefully

"how can i expect that from you? its not your baby, you have no responcibility!"

"do you want to be with mitchel? do you want him in your life?"

"...no" i admitted

"then ill be the father, ill be on the birth certificate and ill tell everyone its mine aslong as you promise not to tell mitchel the truth" he studdied my face for my reaction, this would fix everything, jaimee wouldnt hate me, mitchel would back off and id be with mason. it would fix all of My problems but mason would suffer.

"i cant ask you to do that"

"your not! im offering, ill give you a solution to everything aslong as you give me everything ive ever needed, you"

how could i let him do this? he could do so much, this is my responcibility not his, but im not in a possition to pass it up. 

"okay, but if you change your mind tell me and you can get out whenever you want, we dont have to tell people for wa while anyway" i smiled and he kissed me holding me close to his body. we kissed lowely, and he was sure not to squeeze me too tight. i ran my fingers through his hair tracing the back of his neck, his fingers laced around my back, lowering every so offen. i pulled my weight onto him to tip mason back, my body resting on top of his. i traced my fingers onto his chest, i felt his abs, they werent as defined as mitchels,but they were their and they were perfect for me, i started to undo his buttons, i felt his fingers slip under my dress and stroke my spine. masons shirt was now completely off and i could feel every dint in his body. his fingers gripped my dresspulling it over my head. mason bit my lip and pulled me over until he was ontop of me, i pulled his face close, his hand trailed up my stomach and made its way higher and higher, he kissed my neck and i was in extasy, unil he stopped and rested his hand on my stomach. 

"i cant do this, your parents are down stairs, and your pregnant, and your attractive and i dont want to  hurt you or the baby if  i cant control myself"

i exhaled "okay, i get that, but it wasnt nice to rattle me up" i smirked, mason lent down and kissed me licking my lower lip to allow access before deepening the kiss. he pulled away, quickly looking down at my body which was now barly covered in my lacy langere. he groaned and pulled himef away, i giggled at how tempted he was. he slid his shirt onand i re adjusted my dress and pressed myself against masons body 

"please dont go" i pouted. mason grabbed my face between his hands

"do you realise how long ive waited to do this? how many art classes i missed just to stare at this face?" he kissed me lovingly and soft, i leaned onto my toes to reach his lips and bring them back but he held me down. 

"i have to go, you need your rest and i need to sleep so that i can wake up and get you to school on time" he smiled, kissed my cheek and walked out.