can you keep a secret? (updated weekly)

Goodbye?

"Ms Andrews I would prepare to say goodbye to your Fiancé" my body became unresponsive, we were going to get married, buy a house, add to our family. Now I have to say goodbye? I'm not ready for this, not at all.

"The life supports on but we don't expect him to last much longer" i nodded holding back the tears threatening to escape my eyes and burn my cheeks. the doctor nodded and walked away. i walked back into the waiting room where sets of hopeful eyes met mine. i held Masons mothers hand and pulled her around the corner into his room.

"we have to get ready to say goodbye" i whispered, not looking at her, but at her son, the love of my life. Masons mom was so strong, a single tear left her eye before she tapped my hand and noded. i left, i knew the babies and i would be last to say goodbye.  i sat with my family, they held my hand and i gripped my son tighter to keep my attention busy. it was about 30 minutes before masons family walked out of the room. my family went in next to thank him for looking after me and the Babies, that didnt take long and then it was my turn.

i stood up with my babies and walked into the oom, he looked like he was sleeping, his eyes shut softly and it felt asthough his eyes would pop open at any minute and we would go homee. i sat on the chair next to the bed and studied him. my breathing became broken and my chest lifted up and down controling the sobs trying to break free.

"thankyou" was all that escaped before the sobs grew too strong and my body curled up onto the chair. i breathed out again and let my body calm down.

"i shouldnt have left you, you didnt mean to do it" i stroked his hand.

"i was hurt, i never stopped loving you, never think that! i loved you the second i saw you listening to poison at your locker and you looked over at me and smiled, you had an amazing smile. i would stand at my locker longer just to see that smile. i loved you when you let me read off of your text book in math and explained everything to me, you were so good at math. when you sang to me all night on the phone after i shoved pudding down your pants in the cafeteria, you didnt care that i hated you, you just loved me unconditionally. you helped me give birth to our beautiful children, you were so selfless to help me raise someone elses children, but thats the type of person you were... are. youwould do anything for anyone without a care for yourself, and now your leaving me" i cried harder now and i just wanted to hold him. i sat next to him on the bed the way he had when i gave birth and i held his bady to my chest the way i held Charlie every night while she cried. 

"i dont want you to leave me" i whispered. beeps started to grow faster and the doctor came running in.

"stay where you are" he ordered me and i followed. he looked at Masons heart rate and his eyes buldged

"stay where you are keep doing what you were doing" my tears stopped and i looked at the doctor confused.

"whats going on is he?" my voice wouldnt release the final word

"no his heart rates picking up, if it stays this way we may be able to get his eyes open" i looked down at him, he heard me, he can hear us

"mason, mason i love you, with everything i have i love you!" i rocked his body, begging his eyelashes to part. his eyes were black andparts of his hair were shaved off, he had cuts all over his body, if he were to wake up, would he want to?

"mason i need you to wake up i love you please!" i begged and the doctor rested his hand on my shoulder in encouragment.

"just be with him, its helping" i nodded and the doctor left. i stayed their for what felt like hours. and then, just as his heartrate began to drop, charlie started crying. i refused to move, Mason needed me. i felt movement in my arms and Masons body twisted.

"its your turn" mason whispered through a croaky voice and i began to cry of joy.

"Mason!" i screamed i tapped the nurses button and they came running in 

"hes awake!" the checked everything to make sure he was okay

"did he say anything?" i nodded and smiled i sat their holding him while he slept, the nurses looked after charlie for me so that i could sit with Mason. it was about 5am when the nurses came back in

"his survived the night, you should go home Ms Andrews" i shook my head. and the nurse left. i picked up the hospital phone and called Jaimee.

"jaimee"

"madison? this isnt your number where are you?"

"im at the hospital, mason was in a car accident"

"is he okay?!?"

"i think so, his getting better"

"oh okay, do you need me to do anything? wheres B1B2?"

"their here, can you come get them and look after them at my house? i cant leave mason right now"

Yea, Mitchel and i will be over right now" the phone hung up, and i turned back to mason, cradeling him in my arms

"go home Maddison" masons voice hovered

"im not going home im staying with you" he was awake again and he sounded much better

"im okay, i promise" he tried to reason

"you werent a few hours ago im not leaving you" his lip curled up into a smile and i couldnt help but laugh

"did you mean what you said?" i looked confused

"do you love me?" he raised an eyebrow and the smile on my face wouldnt leave

"ofcoarse i love you,idiot" i joked to him

"do you really want to marry me?" my smile softened

"i didnt really want to before, but now i no that no atter what i need you in my life" maso shut his eyes again and his heart rate became strong i finally fell asleep with his head on my chest in the hospital bed, thanking god for the miricle he had proformed to keep mason here, with me