can you keep a secret? (updated weekly)

the fight

Masons lips found my stomach, i had just woken up from my nap and was feeling pretty groggy. mason smiled at me

"your finally awake" i smiled and lent up to kiss him and pulled his armuntil he was seated behind me. i rested my head on his lap wile he twirled my hair between his fingers. i thought about my art, about those classes i spent staring at him.

"why dont you draw anymore?" i asked curiously, antisipating his answer.

"if i told you id have to kill you" he smirked, but i just rolled my large mossy eyes. 

"will you please tell me" i whimpered, using my puppy dog eyes to my advantage. mason groaned and lifted my body off of him. he got up and walked to the babies room. i sat up on the lounge awaiting his return. 

Mason walked into the room with a sketch book and art supplies in his hand. he sat on the opposit end of the couch, obviously nervous.

"i dont want you to think im a creep for this..." he bit his lip, handing me the book. i flipped through the pages, on the first page was a water colour, a couple laying on a white and blue bed, wrapped in eachothers arms, her blown curls flowing everywhere and his pearly smile, loving and soft. i flicked the page and it was a violent brush stroke, in blacks and greys, another girl, whorped in proportion, purposly drawn to look hidious. across the pages in charcoal were images of the same girl on the first page, one at her locker, looking on the verge of tears, another sitting alone in a cafeteria, andso on. as the book went on and on the pictures became lighter, but of the same girl in the same position, looking down.

i couldnt breath, i couldnt even look at him. i put the book onto the couch and began to walk out of the appartment, regretting my entire life. i could hear mason calling after me, but i payed no attention until i felt his hand slam down onto my wrist and pull me back, my body faught until i turned and looked at him. the tears fell and i could feel my cheaks burn with anger, but my face only read hurt.

"why! why did you draw that!" i screamed through sobs

"its not suppose to hurt you maddison, its how i feel.... how i felt." he looked down loosening his grip. my body slid down the wall, the last time i felt this way was when i found out i was pregnant. i sobbed histerically while mason waited. 

i eventually stood up, controling myself.

"why did you do it?" i spoke strongly, placing my hands on either side of my belly. Mason looked up at me from the couch, looking for the right answer.

"she was their and you wouldnt give it up and i couldnt help it! we had just had a fight and she was stroking my arm telling me i deserve better and i thought i did, but i dont, i know that now i dont deserve to have you, it s killed me that i hurt you, that book... its my punishment, its all you.. its us. i wanted you to get over me, and you started to, but i never did." he admitted i was so mad i couldnt help but yell more

"you dont deserve me, i was so good to you, im still good to you and i can over look it, but to publish what happened? i did my best toget over you and that book shows me that obviously i didnt suceed."

"maddison it was my thing that i did, and obviously you got over my pretty well" mason gestured to my stomach. that was it guns blazing, i felt my hand raise above my head and come down onto masons face.

"dont you ever talk about me that way, do you think i wanted this? with mitchel? ive given up my family, my friends my life and all so that mitchel wont find out and so that you can be with me again! i was so stupid for thinking you had changed, your still the cheating, lying scum i broke up with three years ago and thats never going to change!" my blood boiled, and by the look in Masons eyes, so had his.

"well your still the most argumentative, pig headed bitch that i cheated on! only difference is your a bit looser" he smiled cockily and my face turned red, i went to walk to the door until i felt mason pull me back. as he grabbed my waist i felt a sharp pain and screamed, loosing my strength and falling to the ground. hard. i clutched at my belly and yelled out to Mason 

"call the doctor"