can you keep a secret? (updated weekly)

Welcome home

Mason was leaving the hospital today. The twins were with Jaimee so that I could help mason out of the hospital easier. I drove down the highway quietly, thinking about my fiancée and the life we both nearly lost together for the final time. I began to shift in my seat until outside of the car, my attention drew to a truck. I started to panic as my fists grew white, I swerved through the traffic to get away from it as my heart began to pound. i looked infront of me and i collided with another car. everything went white.

i shot up out of bed, sweat drenching my body. i could hear the cry of a baby and i looked over to the bassinette, Charlie was whaling away. i pulled her up and rested her over my shoulder, pating her back. i looked down at Max, his eyes looked up at me lovingly. Max could have been awake for hours and i wouldnt have known, his just happy to exist. i stroked his chubby cheek and bounced charlie up and down to stop her crying. it was time for mason to come home and i was a bit scared, what if i couldnt look after him properly? what if i start neglecting the twins? i put charlie into her bouncer and went to pick up Max. i fed him first and then fed charlie before i made breakfast for myself.

i jumped out of the shower while the twins played in their bouncer, i straightened my hair, applied some light make-up. i looked at the mirror and into my post baby body. my stomach was still rounded but lower down than when i was pregnant, my body was laced with stretch marks, but i was smaller than a few weeks ago after i gave birth. the twins left me barely any time to eat and i had been so worried about Mason, i gave up my eating times to look after him in hospital. i guess ididnt feel right eating while every one around me depended so much on me. i through on a pair of pink jeans which had just started to fit again and a white singlet. i slipped on a pair of flats when the door bell rang. i opened the door to find jaimee and Mitchel standing infront of me. i greeted them and invited them inside. jaimee went straight to charlie and held her tight.

"every day she looks more and more like you!" jaimee squealed

"i know, i was hoping shed look like me, she has mitchel and masons personality already" i smiled at her before my eyes traced over to mitchel who was holding Max and looking at him deeply.

"his starting to look like a combination of us" mitchel smiled "i can see my jaw line"

i looked at my son, whos dark hair, skin and eyes were mine and noticed all the little parts of mitchel, his jaw line, eye shape, nose and lips, Max was very lucky with his genetics, Charlie looked exactly like me, her hair had grown thicker and darker like my own, she had Mitchels eyes, but held my cheeck bones, lips, nose and skine tone. they were beautiful.

"i have to go get Mason now will you two be okay?" i probed, i hated leaving the twins for a second, they were developing so fast, they were already a month old tomorrow and it felt like yesterday i sat in my apartment, pregnant and fighting with Mason, and now we have a home and a life just begining for us.

"yes were fine! stop worrying so much, otherwise youll end up in the hospital and their will be no one to look after the three of them" jaimee smiled but i shivered at the thought. i pulled the door open to the minivan and drove towards the hospital, i had seen Mason almost every day but now i could actually bring him home which actually made me a bit over excited. i pulled up at the hospital and took the elevator straight to his floor. I walked into his room and found him struggling on the floor. i dropped my bags and ran straight to him

"mason whats wrong!" i paniced, my hands scared to touch him

"neh- nothing, i was trying to get out of bed to save you the trouble of helping me" he looked at me with worry washed over his face.

"Mason i dont mind helping you, this isnt your fault, if anything its mine" i smiled to him, reasuringly.

"its not your fault its that fucking truck drivers!" mason spat, holding my head in his hands. his tears only reaching the surface breifly, i pulled my lips to his, in hopes of calming him down, which seemed to work. i dressed him into his favourite outfit, the one he wore when we kissed on the bleechers, and brought the wheel chair over for him. the wheel chair wasnt permident, it was only until the phisio therapy started to work. we got out to the car and pulled onto the road before mason began to talk.

"so how were the twins this morning?"

"they miss you, Charlies hair is covering her ears now, and I swear max just stays awake all night" I gushed over the twins the entire drive home, and mason loved hearing about them, I couldn't bring them into the hospital in case they caught something, so mason was excited to see them after all this time.

I helped mason into his wheelchair and walked him into the house, my mom and dad were their playing with Charlie on the floor while Jaimee bounced max to sleep.

"Welcome home" I whispered to mason, his face lit up as I locked him in the centre of the lounge room. I bent over to pick up Charlie and handed her to mason. Charlie gurgled her cute baby noises and I watched my fiancée tear up.

" I want one of these one day" his eyes kept to Charlie's, but the pit of my stomach grew hollow. I always wanted a big family but I never even thought that mason could be giving up his chance of having more children to look after somebody else's. I never thought he cared about having children.

"Let's focus on walking first" I joked to lighten the mood for myself and my parents sitting at my feet sharing worried looks.