Right my Wrongs

Chapter 18- Is it safe to say I'm falling?

                                                   Ivy 

"I guess I'll head back to my dorm now," I say, fiddling with my earrings.

"If you want, I can drop you," Spencer offers.

"It's alright. My place is pretty close from here. You should head back too," I reply.

"Okay then, bye I guess. Take care," he smiles and says.

"You too. Bye," I smile back.

As I make my way to my dorm, guilt starts to seep in. How am I supposed to face Jason? Ah...there he is, strolling around the hallway as if nothing happened. Fuck.

"Hey... When did you come?" I say, trying to maintain a composed demeanor as I take the keys out of my tote bag.

"Baby, I'm so sorry for yesterday. I shouldn't have acted the way I did. Things were sorted out later... I'm back on the team," Jason says, his tone apologetic.

"Jason, I don't want to talk about this," I respond, my voice filled with resignation.

"I tried calling you," he adds.

"My phone died," I say solemnly.

"Oh."

"You wanna grab something to eat?" he asks, trying to make amends.

"Uh, I had a subway on my way back. I'm gonna study for an upcoming test," I reply, wanting to create some distance. "I'm gonna crash right after...I'm tired.'' I add.

"Oh okay babe...I'll see you tomorrow for breakfast then.'' Jason says gives me a hug before taking his leave. 

I change into my pajamas and sink into the comfort of my bed. Today was something else. I think spending time with Spencer today gave me clarity about what I want. What I feel for Spencer is more than just a passing infatuation. But am I moving too fast? I can't ignore the fact that Jason is still unaware of everything that's been happening lately. Despite his flaws, he doesn't deserve to be blindsided by my actions.