Heaven's So Far Away - A Sam Winchester X Female Reader Fic

Chapter 7

Sam's POV

"You uh....you wanna run that by me again?" Y/N asked incredulously with confusion painted all over her face.

"Monsters...like vampires, werewolves, ghosts...stuff like that." I sighed.

I couldn't even really fathom the fact that I was sitting on Y/N's couch, inside her home, only a few feet away from her at the moment....let alone the fact I was telling her the God's honest truth. 

I never thought I would admit such a thing to her...I never wanted to. The thought of what her reaction could be was terrifying in itself... but I was so scared of how this knowledge would change her mentality. 

I think it's safe to say that no civilian could ever witness, or even know about the things Dean and I deal with on a daily basis, without being altered in some way. Either they're crazy enough to become hunters like us...or they develop a fear of even walking outside their front door. And both of those possibilities were the very last things I ever wanted for her. 

But I was pinned into a corner here...I'd somehow miraculously been gifted another chance to make things right...to lift the burden on my heart, and answer the questions that have been plaguing her for years. I planned to take full advantage of it...because I loved this woman way too much to continue keeping her in the dark....for better or for worse. 

I studied her face carefully as she processed...making note of every emotion that seemed to dance across her eyes...until her brows furrowed and she seemed to settle on one emotion in particular....

...Anger.

"I think it's time for you to go, Sam." she whispered.

"Y/N, please..." I started, getting caught a little off guard by her response. 

"No, that....that's the last straw." she shook her head as she jumped up from the couch, her body trembling with rage as she turned away from me.

"I don't-" I tried to continue.

"Seven years, and that's the story you come up with? I let you into my home...I give you the benefit of the doubt...despite every part of my better judgement...and you respect me so little that you continue to lie. And not even just a lie...a fairy tale story? Do you think I'm that stupid?" she raised her voice as she spun around to glare at me meanly.

"Y/N, I swear to you, I'm telling the truth." I defended, standing up to my feet as well and holding my arms out innocently. 

"So you genuinely expect me to believe...that you disappeared without a trace and broke my heart... so you could join the fucking Ghostbusters? You're a smart fucking guy, Sam...I'm honestly just offended you didn't take the time to think up something better than that." she was so enraged that she began to laugh...it was probably the most pissed I'd ever seen her. 

"Look me in the eyes and tell me I'm lying." I urged her, stepping closer to her, but that only encouraged her to take a step back.

"Just like I looked you in the eyes and believed you when you told me we were forever? Give me a fucking break." she spat. 

"I swear...I swear on my mother's grave, I am telling you the truth, Y/N." my voice began to increase in volume as well.

As she heard me say this, her eyes widened a bit, and her arms settled down at her sides. If nothing else...Y/N knew how seriously I took those words. My mother was such a sensitive, touchy subject for me...and I would never say those words lightly, by any means. It was probably Y/N's understanding of that that encouraged her to visit my mother's headstone in the first place, honestly.