Janet
I walked into the house feeling pretty good after my appointment. Everything was great with my medications and the doctor said I was in perfect health. My levels were good and so was my weight.
Even better, I spoke with the psychiatrist and she suggested a lower dosage. She felt that my agreement and eagerness to start therapy was a sign of improvement and I couldn't agree more."Janet." Toni met me at the door. Usually she greets me with a kiss or hug but this time it was just a worried face.
"What's up? Did you get the girls?"
"Yes." I had Toni get the girl from school since I was at the doctors.
"What's wrong?" I stepped in.
"Amiyah was quiet and a little skittish the whole ride home. When we got here, the two of them went into their room and haven't been out since. They won't tell me anything." I instantly became worried about my babies.
"Let me go talk to them." I sat my purse down and went upstairs. Going to their room, I heard whispers through the door. When I knocked, it went silent.
"Mama, we said we don't want to talk about it."
"It's not mama, it's mommy." The door swung open and I was pulled in. "Whoa." Amelia closed the door. Amiyah was sitting on her bed, holding the bear from Mama E on her first birthday. I knew something was wrong. "What happened?"
"Mom, this is serious." Amelia pulled me over to Amiyah's bed.
"What is?"
"I think Lolade knows I like her." said Amiyah.
"So I take it, we're worried and scared."
"Duh." said Amelia.
"Lolade can't know that I like her and no one else can either, I would die."
"Why?"
"Mom, don't you remember?" I looked at them. Amelia sighed. "Tony likes Lolade and he told Derek. Derek told Weston and he said that it wouldn't be right to like Lolade because her parents are from Nigeria and Tony and his family are scum and wouldn't like him.
So Weston to Derek to tell Tony to like someone else and he started liking Amelia but Amelia doesn't like Tony because she and Derek are partners on a project and he likes her. So Weston asked Tony if he thought I was pretty and Tony said no. Weston told Kim and Kim to Maria. Now Maria is a blabber mouth and told all her friends that Tony doesn't like me because my breath stinks and my arms are weird. Maria's friend Tiffany is friends with Sara and Sara is friends with Lolade.""That's right, and you don't want Lolade to think that you're ugly because Tony would be jealous if she likes you back."
"Exactly."
"And I'm guessing Maria likes Tony and doesn't want either of you with him, right?"
"Yes! And it's not fair." Amiyah laid back on her bed. "I mean, I knew it was far fetched anyway but now that she knows everything is ruined."
"Sweetie, first tell me what happened." She sighed.
"Lolade was helping me with math. I started understanding and she said one day I'd be good at math and tutoring like her before I knew it. Then she put her hand on my shoulder and I stupidly said that I couldn't be like her because she was smart and athletic and pretty. Then she asked if I thought she was pretty and I freaked out and ran out of the room."
"So you didn't talk to her?"
"No."
"Then you don't know what she's thinking. You should talk to her." She sat up.