Desolation // h.s (Book 2 of The Redemption Series)

Chapter Twenty Five

Songs For This Chapter:

. Colossal - Wolfmother

. I Run To You - Misso

. Hemorrhage - Fuel

. On The Way Down - Ryan Cabreta 

Jade's POV

Three days later, Harry, Emily and I  stood in front of Liam and Jamie's home. Liam and Jamie sat on their front porch step and Aurora was in my arms, staring at them. I hated that Harry had to bring Aurora along, because I knew that it would bother Liam and Jamie. Unfortunately he had no choice, because her grandparents had went on vacation the day after they had dropped her of at my home.

"I, erm, I bet you all are hungry, yeah?" Jamie said.

"Actually I was hoping that you guys would allow us to take you out to eat?" Harry said. "Every time that we come, you guys always cater to our needs, I think it's about time we did it for you."

"Are you fu-cking serious?" Liam asked. "We don't need your fake pity."

"What?" Harry asked softly. "I'm not trying to make it seem like we are not hurting also, we are. I just thought it'd be nice for us to give you back what you have always given to us."

"Fu-ck this." Liam muttered as he got up from the front step. "Come talk to me when you feel like you are really sorry, until then keep your fake pity away from me or I'll punch you in the face, Harold."

I was completely shocked that Liam had said what he had said. In any situation Liam was always calm, when my parents died he was calm, when Lance was born he was calm. Liam turned away and went inside of his house leaving Jamie, Harry, Emily and I completely speechless.

Eventually the lot of us went to a small restaurant on the other side of town. Harry had decided to leave Aurora at his mother's home, she was more than happy to see her adopted granddaughter, but as normal she stood in the doorway and shot glares at me. I tried my best to pretend that it didn't bother me but it did, I honestly know that Anne will always detest me.

Liam sat in silence as the rest of us conversed. I had never seen my brother so sad nor had I ever seen him so quiet. I reached over to him and whispered, "I'm here, I'm here for you. When you wanna talk, I will be here to listen."

Liam turned his head to look at me and smiled. "Thank you." He whispered. 

"Anytime." I replied in a whisper.

Even though Liam and I fought more than siblings were supposed to, I loved him with my entire heart. Liam was the only family that I had left, he had helped raise me. I could never be more grateful  for him being the mother and father figure after mum and dad passed

The server arrived with our food minutes later. Liam had gotten a plate of baked chicken, as did Jamie. Harry had his medium-rare steak as he normally did and Emily and I had a salad. I hadn't had much of an appetite since the news of Lance's pass, it also didn't help that April had sent me a text message the day and I had heard the news, that Harry had told her multiple times that I was fat. 

I had gained some weight, I couldn't even lie about that. I had gained more than twenty pounds since I had left rehab, but I was finally getting close to the weight that I was supposed to be at for my age. And then April dropped that bomb on me and my whole mind became consumed with the thoughts of being too big, not being able to wear my clothes, and being ridiculed.

I felt as if my mind was the city of Troy and the Greeks were waiting outside my gate in their big wooden horse, waiting for any opportunity to enter my gate and take control. With every bite that I took of my salad, I gained more and more self hatred. I couldn't understand why, after so long, I was having a relapse. Why did it matter to me what April had said? I couldn't figure out if I was jealous of her or if I just was angry that she had even told me what she did.

Harry looked down at my plate, I had only ate about seven small bites. Emily had finished her salad, Jamie, Liam and Harry were already half done with theirs.  "Are you okay, babe?" He mouthed. I nodded my head in a reply but inside I was nowhere near okay.

My head was consumed with thoughts about what him and April had done. I wondered  if he had kissed her lips the way that he kissed mine. I wondered if he cuddled with her the way that he did with me. April was 115 pounds of pure beauty and yet there I was 135 pounds.  Many people had told me that I looked good, had they been lying? 

"I want to talk after we eat, yeah?" Liam said to me.

"Okay, when we get home." I replied.

A/N: Hi lovelies, hopefully this chapter is okay. The next will be up soon.

I love you all ❤️