Desolation // h.s (Book 2 of The Redemption Series)

Chapter Seventeen

Songs From This Chapter:

. Jealous - Nick Jonas

. The Birds And The Bees - Breathe Carolina

. Something  - Escape The Fate

.  Friends And Alibi's - Escape The Fate

. Stockholm Syndrome - One Direction

Harry's POV

I sat in the bedroom that Jade rented for over an hour before finally getting out of the bed and walking downstairs. I was angry at myself, frankly I was pissed at myself. I didn't love April, I was with her simply because she helped me with the loneliness that I had been constantly feeling whilst Jade was gone. April was a sweet girl, but I couldn't see myself with her in the future, like I did with Jade. April and I had nothing in common, we had no special memories together like Jade and I had. So I knew that I would have to let her go, I had to if I wanted my girl back.

" Jade." I said as I walked into the kitchen.  She looked up at me and quickly diverted her eyes to the cupboards. " Jade, please. Let me tell you something, okay?"

" Fine." She replied, her voice was barely above a whisper. I hated seeing her in the state that she was in, I hated seeing the sadness behind her blue eyes, I hated it and I hated myself for being the cause of her pain.

" May I sit beside you?" I asked.

" Yeah, go ahead." She said. I walked around the table and quickly pulled out a chair from beneath it.

As I sat down I grabbed  a hold of her left hand with my right and laced our fingers together. The warmth of between her fingers was something that I had always loved, it was the all the proof that I needed to know that I wasn't dreaming.

" Baby, please look at me." I begged. Jade turned around her head to the left to look at me and I smiled. " There's my girl."

" 'M not your girl." She spat. I knew that she was angry but I also knew that after I told her what I was planning on doing when we got back to the States that she would be in a better mood.

" No matter what Jade, You'll always be my girl." I told her in all honestly. She would always be my girl, no matter what hardships we would have to pass in the future or if she found someone better than me, she would always be mine because no girl could ever replace her in my mind.

" I need to tell you something and I need you to listen to everything that I am going to say, okay babe?"

" Yeah." She sighed.

" When I first got with April." Jade cringed at the dropping of her name. " I got with her because you were with Zayn. I was in pain Jade, I felt as if I was drowning in my depression and I just couldn't stop drinking. She helped me by trying to make me happy, but she wasn't who I wanted so her attempts failed. I stayed with her while you left because I needed someone, I didn't want to be alone again. I mean babe, do you remember how you felt when I was with Samantha? All the self hatred, the depression, and the thoughts of how you weren't good enough for me? Well baby that's how I felt when you were with Zayn."

" I remember Harry, I remember it all too well." She admitted.

" I promise babe that once we get back to the States, April and I will be over. I am going to break up with her, she isn't who I want and you know who I want?"

" Who?"

" You.  I want you, and only you. I would call her now and break up with her over the phone, but what kind of man would that make me? But I just want you to know that I am finished with her, the only girl I want is you. I don't want to wake up and see her in my bed, I don't want to hold her close on a cold winter night, I don't want to watch cheesy reality shows with her on the telly, I don't want to help her strive for her future, the one that I want is you. Do you want to be with me again?"