Desolation // h.s (Book 2 of The Redemption Series)

Chapter Thirty

Songs of the chapter:

. Distance - Jack And Jack

. Twenty Eight - The Weeknd

. Drop In The Ocean - Ron Pope

. Should've Been Us - Tori Kelly

. Love Bites - Def Lepard

Harry's POV

Never had I ever been so depressed whilst leaving the States. Every time in the past whenever I would leave, I would feel a little carefree but instead I felt like I was making a mistake. The emotions that I was feeling was something truly unnatural to me but I knew that leaving was the best for Jade and I.

I didn't want to cause her anymore pain. I needed to fix myself. Jade had so many problems going on at that time that I didn't need to be another one of her problems, especially after what I had done. I needed to be a better father to Aurora and to be so I needed to find myself.

So as I flew over the States and into the UK, my mind was set only on Jade. I wondered how she was handing the break. Was she crying? Would she forget me?

My mother didn't need me, there was no family emergency. I just needed time to get over what I had done. Not Jade, Emily nor Damian needed to know what I did. Only three people knew and I planned on keeping it that way as long as I could.

When I landed in London, my mother was waiting right in the airport, a smile displayed on her features. For the first time in weeks, I actually felt happy for once. Who knew that my mother would be the one to make me happy? My mother took Aurora from my arms and we proceeded to walk though the airport.

Gemma was outside waiting in the car, as usual with a coffee sitting in the cup holder and an annoyed look on her face. Gemma knew what had happened and let me say that she was not happy. "You better hope that this makes everything better." She said as I placed Aurora in the car seat that my mother had bought her.

"Oh, Gemma." My mother spat. "Don't be so bitchy, just be happy that Harry is here, like I am."

I could see Gemma rolling her eyes at what my mother had said, luckily my mother had her head turned. Gemma was right nonetheless, I truly did hope that with me leaving the States that it would make everything better for not only me but also for Jade. I knew that one day I would return and fix whatever problems I caused with Jade, But sadly, I knew that day wasn't going to be anytime within six months. Until then I had Aurora, my mother and step father to keep me happy.

Two weeks into my stay in the UK, I got a job at the most unexpected place, the old bakery that Jade and I worked in together. The small bakery that caused so many problems. The bakery of mistakes, or so I liked to think of it.

The same people owned the place. I had told them that I had lost my scholarship and was sent home, which was a lie. With empathy in their hearts, they allowed to have my old job back.

The minutes were rough, the days were harsh and the weeks were terrible for me mentally. I thought that once I was in the UK things would look better, but there was nothing better there for me. I contemplated leaving and going back to the States but I didn't have enough money to do so and my parents refused to help me.

In the third week I decided to try to call Jade. I was greeted with the pleasure of hearing the sound of the monotone man stating that the phone number I had dialed was disconnected. It was the same with Emily's phone. Damian's phone would ring and ring and I would go to voice mail. I remember leaving at least 50 voice mails on Damian's line that week alone, asking for a call back that would never be returned.

I waited for days after that before deciding to cut everyone off. I changed my phone number, I opened a bank account and was set on making myself independent. I figured that since Damian couldn't even call me back, then they must have all forgotten about me. If I had only known why Damian wasn't answering, I wouldn't have been such an arse about it.

Out of curiousity one day I decided to log into my social media and to my surprise I saw that Jade hadn't changed her relationship status, but all the pictures of us were gone. I was no longer a friend on Emily's account but I still was on Damian's. I wrote him a message and a day later I received a response, 'Just leave us alone for now, don't you think you have done enough already? This is Emily by the way, and I know what you did.'

That night I deleted every social media account that I had. I allowed lonelyness to consume me. So with everything crumbling around me I finally gave into my depression and dived into it's dangerous waters willingly.

A/N: Hi y'all. How are you? I hope this update is good :) There is no question of the chapter nor trivia but I would love for you guys to ask me questions. Ask anything that you want and I'll answer.

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And as always, I love you all.