Desolation // h.s (Book 2 of The Redemption Series)

Chapter Nine*

Warning: This chapter contains self injury. If this type of material is uncomfortable or triggering for you then please skip this chapter.

Songs For This Chapter:

· I Will Wait - Mumford & Sons

· Howl - Florence + The Machine

· Ass Back Home - Gym Class Heroes

· All Of The Stars - Ed Sheeran

Jade's POV

" I swear Juliet you are the biggest idiot ever!" Emily huffed. " Why would you lie to him like that?"

" Because he deserves better!" I spat as I sat down upon the floor of the shed. " And Zayn deserves to have a faithful girlfriend. "

" Harry doesn't believe that he deserves better. He flew halfway across the world to talk to you after a year and you pushed him away. " Emily replied before lighting her cigarette.

" He deserves better! Zayn deserves to be loved! I can't be with Harry because I love Zayn."

" You always find barriers! "

" What should I do then, email? Please inform me of what my actions should be? Because the last thing that I knew is that this is my life and not yours." I screamed.

" I know that this is your life." Emily retorted. " But what happened to the girl who told everyone that'd she'd do anything to be with Harry? What happened to the girl with the big heart? To the girl who was absolutely smitten over the boy?"

" Harry killed her with his lies and with his bets."

" Juliet I love you and all but sometimes you can be a total b*tch." Emily spat before opening the door to the shed. " I can't believe you Juliet, I don't even know who you are anymore. "

" I could say the same about you! You and Liam are supposed to be on my side, not Harry's. You're supposed to support my decision and not try to make me date my ex and more importantly the one that made me into what I am today, a cold hearted b*tch."

" You've changed Juliet. " Emily said before exiting the shed.

As the reality of my actions finally hit me, I swiftly picked myself up off of the concrete floor. I ran to the shed door and opened it. I quickly ran through the back yard and around to the front of the club. I spotted Harry's mum's vehicle, he had the right blinker on.

" Harry, stop!" I screamed at the top of my lungs Harry mouth dropped open slightly as he looked around the parking lot, he then shrugged his shoulders and drove away.

I choked back a sob and walked back into the club. Harry was gone, I had no car to chase after him and Liam wedding was  set to begin less than five minutes. I couldn't even chase after Harry, and the worst thing about it is that I drove him away singlehandedly.

Later that night Liam and Jamie were asleep in their bedroom. Zayn was sleeping beside me and Emily was sleeping on the other bed that was in the room. I quietly slipped out of Zayn's grasp and tip toed across the room.

I grabbed Emily's cellphone from the nightstand and walked out of the room. As quietly as possible, I walked into the restroom, shut the door, locked it and walked to the medicine cabinet. I stared at myself for a few minutes, disgusted with myself, disgusted with my actions. The pale girl that stared back at me through the mirror just looked depressed and completely lost.

I finally decided to try and call Harry from Emily's phone. After successfully finding his number I pressed the call icon. After five rings I was greeted with the sound of his voicemail.