But What If || Neteyam x reader

Separate Nighttime

       Waking up again as the sun rose, still feeling that beating pulse. It was a comfort and a reminder, day number sixteen and she was still unconscious. I pulled my body away from hers to start the day, I was healing well and I could walk on my own. I walked my way over to the edge of the wall to where the medicine was, I had learned what ointments and herbs that were used on both our wounds daily. I had started to perform the beginning of Elder Ku'uu's schedule, I was getting faster at it and would almost be done by the time he'd entered the Marui. I addressed her first still hoping I'd get some sort of reaction and yet there was still nothing. Not a scrunch in her face or a yelp of pain.

        I moved to her arm wound first, Elder Ku'uu said it had to be taken with more care. It was inflamed and apparently causing her pain, I couldn't tell however as he had a pain reliever in the mix of his routine. I carefully stuck to the way Elder Ku'uu had shown me and lightly slid the medicine along her arm, whatever pain reliever Elder Ku'uu had it worked wonders as I thought about my own wounds. I was slowly being taken off of them but those first few days I was up I almost couldn't feel anything. I smeared the last of the ointment on her arm whilst thinking it was at least good to know she wasn't in any pain. "Done with the arm already?" There was Elder Ku'uu by the door, on his hip was a basket filled with new bandages. "Yes, sir." I moved away from where I was sitting and went back to my own cot as he came over. "You've done a fine job Neteyam."

      "Thank you, sir." I watched as he got to work bandaging up her arm for the day and then starting the medicine routine on her leg. It was silent in the Marui, except for the clinking of the shell containers. All I did was watch as he finished with her and moved on to me. I waited patiently and quietly for him to be done, usually, he was quick and eager to get out to attend to the others who were also wounded. But today it seemed as if he was taking forever. He had been sighing often as well. "Sir?" I felt as though he was trying to say something and I was worried. "Hmm?" If what he was trying to say was this hard to get out it must be bad news. "What's wrong?" Sensing I knew he was trying to say something his shoulders slumped and he spoke. "Neteyam, you are healing well." Starting off with a positive, great mother, what terrible thing was he to tell me? "Physically...." He struggled with his next words, he had been all morning. "But myself and others feel like emotionally being in here isn't helping you." What, why wouldn't I be helping? "Neteyam, we have thought about this for days and we've decided to move you back to your Mauri early." No, who would take care of (Y/N), and make sure her hands weren't cold? "Elder Ku'uu-"

       "It has been decided, you'll be out of here by sundown." I could feel my body shaking. Why were they doing this? What harm was there in staying here? "I know you can walk pretty well on your own now but I want someone with you always." I just couldn't believe they were doing this or why. "Your mother should be here any second." He finished with the last of my injuries, he had definitely been taking his time before. "I know you care deeply for (Y/N), and I'm sure she would be happy to hear how well you've taken care of her but," Why was there a but, there shouldn't be. "You also need to take care of yourself, you can't stay in here all day." My body felt weak and wouldn't stop shaking. "I don't stay in here all the time! I go to the communal meals, I go on walks with my family!" He sighed, "Neteyam, this decision is out of your hands." I watched as he left, leaving me there, why are they doing this? I look over at (Y/N) both furious and scared.

     Moving next to her I take her hands again, I stay watching her for a while and letting my thoughts run. All sorts of thoughts were coming to my mind. I thought of going along with them and sneaking into the Marui at night, or just downright refusing to go. I should be fighting to stay by her side, she should be getting up any moment, and when she does I want to be there. I shouldn't leave, I should argue to stay... I would have loved to but I knew I wouldn't. I've never disobeyed my elders ever and as much as I wanted to stay I knew they were doing this with my best interests in mind. I took in a breath and tried accepting the fact that I couldn't be with her all the time. Today was my last day being next to her all day watching over her and making sure she was okay. Tomorrow that would be someone else's job. My jaw clenched just thinking of it, I am her intended I should be the one to watch her, and yet I'm being taken away. Why couldn't she just open her eyes? How much blood had she really lost at my expense?