Supanova

Freedom

"I want to be your comfort you don't have to go through everything alone anymore."

Nova
If I was to say I was completely unhappy aloud no one would understand. I know I have things to be happy about but I'm not whole heartedly happy. The moments when it's just me and my thoughts my mind seemly never ending it felt tormenting.

I'm so much better off than I was before after the kidnapping but the pain never really goes away the trauma lingers until you meet your end. If anything I can say I learned how to cope.

I wasn't sad or scared I was just traumatized some nights I could sleep soundly without one thought of the past and sometimes I just couldn't.

This night I was at Daisukes house freshly awoken from a nightmare but he was outside on his fire escape. I faintly remember him getting out of bed and whispering he'll be back.

I didn't want him to get mad at me so I kept it to myself but I wasn't okay with the fact that he left to go smoke I knew he was smoking because I could smell the weed from his bedroom. It felt like he was too dependent on it and it made me a little worried for our future.

I knew he had a lot to process but I wanted to be there with him to fight his battles together but he was outside with his drugs and I was alone restless.

My phone screen read 2:35 am and Daisuke finally graces me with his presence climbing in from his fire escape.

"What are you doing up, ma?" He asks softly with smile.

"I was waiting on you."

"I don't think I remember telling you to wait up." He smirks seeing right through my partial lie.

"I don't know I just couldn't sleep."

"I don't wanna be the reason why you can't sleep." He slurs giving me a kiss on the forehead. I could smell the smoke off of him. He still had his familiar scent just mixed with smoke.

"Come to bed Mr.I smoke before bed now." I shade to see if he would sense my disapproval.

"Are you upset with me?"

"A little bit." I say reluctantly not sure how he would react.

"Im sorry mama, I was going through really bad withdrawals,  I'm dealing with so much right now the only thing I can do is smoke."

"No it's not Daisuke there's so much more you can do all these people are here for you including me and you're choosing to smoke."

"Nova I know you're upset but you don't understand what I had to go through."

"Make me understand Daisuke I'm begging, I want to be your comfort you don't have to go through everything alone anymore." I hold his check in my hand trying to get him to look at me.

"I wish I could tell you but you might think I'm crazy." He says moving my hand away continuously avoiding my gaze.

"Yes you can just talk me please." I beg my eyes starting to water.

"My dad's still alive." He saying looking me in the eyes.

"What, How is that possible?" I ask in disbelief.

"I'm trying to figure that out now but it was Amir's lawyer, I didn't realize until he said my name."

"I knew it felt a little weird that the both of you resembled each other so much."

"He had to know it was me I mean he saw my name when he took that case was he trying to get rid of me?"

"No I'm sure there's an explanation you need to talk to him figure everything out."

"Yeah like I'll ever talk to that abusive dead beat again."

"Maybe he's changed you'll never know until you talk to him."

"I'll think about it."

"I'll take it, now come to bed."

"Hold on I have to shower I don't want you to smell like smoke."

"How about I join?" I smile.

"No not this time." He says sternly.

"Why not?" I frown a little hurt by his rejection.

"Because we would be in there till the sun came up I got something for you later."

"Oh well I'll be waiting then," I smiled.

Daisuke
I nod leaving to go to the bathroom making sure to lock the door. She didn't need to find out the truth. Going into my closet there was safe hidden behind a basket.

I take it out checking to see if the evidence was still there and to my relief the pills and the blunt was still there. I sigh taking the drugs and crushing it up to flush down the toilet with what's left of the blunt.

By the time I got done taking a shower it was three in the morning Nova was was half asleep but she was still awake enough to motion for me to come to bed

I obeyed going to lay my head on her chest as she lazily played with my damp hair.

"I wish I could tell you everything about me but you might hate me," I whisper thinking about how she would react if she knew what I really did for her.

"I could never hate you Daisuke." She say lowly, fighting her sleep.

I hold onto to her little tighter her scent making me sleepy and soon we both nodded off, too sleepy to say anything else.