"Hey!" I shouted.
"Give me back my phone. STOP READING MY TEXTS." He stopped.
"Are you cheating on me." He said his eyes trying to find mine.
"No. He dumped me." I said avoiding his eyes.
"Oh. Well you seem pretty intent on getting him back." He said coldly.
"No it's just he has gone away and won't tell me where he is." I tried to explain.
"Yeah well maybe you could text me when you're done trying to get with him and realise that he is obviously ignoring you." His normally soft voice sounded soundly cold as ice.
"It's not like that really I can exp-" I started.
"Explain that you are in love with one person who doesn't love you back whilst having a full time boyfriend that does love you yet you don't love him." he said sarcasm in his voice.
He raised his hand like he was gonna hit me.
Terror rose in my eyes. He saw. He stopped he looked so ashamed hurt. He began to say something, I was to scared and stunned to listen.
"Fine. I am leaving. I hope you got what you wanted." I said my eyes on the floor, I grabbed my bag then walked out the house slamming the door angrily behind me.
Then I went to the nearest little coffee shop put my head in my hands and cried. I cried so hard.
My life was falling apart and there was nothing I could do to save it.
I needed him, where the hell was he.
I needed him so badly and he wasn't there no he was off forgetting about me doing something fun somewhere nice and defiantly NOT doing what I am doing.
I cried harder.
I hate my life, myself, everything. I wanted to cut to release the pain but I promised.
I promised Ashton.
In someways it was like that was the last thing I had of us of him. If I lost that all would be gone.
(Apart from the big t shirt of his he let me keep, I slept in it every night. It smelt of him. It was like he was there. except he wasn't."
All lost.
I remembered the time he had first asked me to be his girlfriend.
He had sung that song to me. From his band.
Lost boy.
It was a lie he wasn't lost without me he was obviously perfectly fine he hadn't contacted me once proving he didn't find it to difficult to move on.
If what we had was real how could you be fine.
Cause I'm not fine at all.
Damn I missed my lost boy.
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Omg guys feels when I was writing this I was in literal tears ahhhhhhhhhh nooo
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