It had been a week since the break up. I hated school. It meant I had to see Luke and I didn't need that right now.
I cried myself to sleep most nights thinking of what Ashton is probably doing with Jessica. (The slut).
I missed him so much but I couldn't be with him, not after what he had done.
* ring ring *
It was Ashton I declined it. I couldn't talk to him. Even if I wanted to.
I missed our moments were he would rub my back or fiddle with my fingers or kiss my forehead. I just missed all of it. I missed his sweet reassurance and all the times he told me he loved me.
I wish I had never gone to Spain. I wish I had never left him. I thought I was doing the right thing but turns out I was making it worse.
* ring ring *
Another calm from Ashton, I let it ring again.
"Omg Olivia." he started to say.
"I am so sorry I just I am dying. Just open your window.
" Ashton I don-" I began to say I was already in tears just hearing his voice. He had hung up I decided to open my window.
I saw him standing there he had wet cheeks and his eyes looked poofy like he had been crying. Guilt ran through me to see him this way.
He opened his mouth and began to sing,
'So your friends been telling me
You been sleeping with my sweater
And that you can't stop missing me
Bet my friends been telling you
I'm not doing much better
Cause I'm missing half of me
And being here without you
Is like I'm waking up to
Only half a blue sky
Kind of there but not quite
I'm walking round with just one shoe
I'm half a heart without you
I'm half a man at best
With half an arrow in my chest
I miss everything we do
I'm half a heart without you
Forget all we said that night
No it doesn't even matter
Cause we both got split in two
If you could spare an hour or so
We'll go for lunch down by the river
We can really talk it through
And being here without you
Is like I'm waking up to
Only half a blue sky
Kind of there but not quite
I'm walking round with just one shoe
I'm half a heart without you
I'm half a man at best
With half an arrow in my chest
Cause I miss everything we do
I'm half a heart without you
Half a heart without you
I'm half a heart without you,
Though I try to get you out of my head
The truth is I got lost without you
And since then I've been waking up to
Only half a blue sky (Only half a blue sky)
Kind of there but not quite
I'm walking round with just one shoe
I'm half a heart without you
I'm half a man at best (Half a man at best)
With half an arrow in my chest
Cause I miss everything we do
I'm half a heart without you
Without you [x2]
Half a heart without you
Without you [x2]
Half a heart without you.'
He finished his cheeks were now damp with salty tears. And was so emotional, I wanted him back so bad.
"A little bird told me you liked One Direction." he said sniffing.
"Listen Liv...Olivia I messed up so bad and ever since I have been just a mess like I said I am a lost boy without you you are half of me, if I lose you well I am not me. You're a part of me Olivia and that means so much to me."
I smiled sheepishly at him.
"We met four months ago on this exact day." He said he was now on his knees.
"Olivia I know you are not gonna take me straight back but I am willing to fight for you, for us. Will you let me try?"
I nodded slowly and then fast. All I have waged to hear over the past week where those words coming out of that boys mouth and now I feel slightly slightly better.
But he has to fight.
