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'𝐓𝐎𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐎𝐖'𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐀𝐘..'

'The day that we leave..And I'll be out of here.'

You'd gotten sick of the stuffy air that filled your room. To many people had come and gone through this room for the air to not be thick and heavy. It's not as though you cared that the people you shared a room with were now gone. After all it didn't matter to you, as long as you wouldn't lose. But it was almost like the suffocating air were the ghosts of regret from the boys who'd lost it all.

Tomorrow you'd be joining pxg so this would be your final night in this stifling room. Ego hadn't told you about pxg and so you had no idea who was on the team, only that the captain was julain loki. That was the only piece of information you'd been given thus far.

At the beginning of wildcard as you were settling in, the second selection had ended. Unbeknownst to you those you hoped that would notice your absence definitely had..

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"Kunigami and y/n must be on the last team..They definitely will." Isagi impatiently waited for something that would never come. He hoped the both of you made it. Rensuke was his teammate and his friend. As for you.. He'd never admit it but the very few encounters he'd had with you, he developed a small puppy-like crush. It was childish and it might've been because he was so girl deprived staying in blue lock, but the way you smiled at him made his stomach flutter with butterflies.

The flurry in his stomach could only be described as butterflies. It was as if they were dusting the cob webs that lined within him and replaced it with summery decor instead. He felt warm. It was nice and pleasant. Something he hadn't felt in a long time. If he'd ever even felt it before.

But he knew he wasnt special. Your smile that made his heart skip a beat, it wasn't something reserved just for him. He knew you thought of him as nothing more than a friend.. If you even saw him as that much, you never were on the same team and had barely spoke. 'Why would she look at me..When she can have him?'

The last door began to crack open, his stomach going on a rampage. Isagi shifted his gaze around the room, seeing the different reactions. Beside him stood an anxious rin, and no matter how hard he wanted to deny it, isagi could tell that it was you, he was worried about.

'But didn't they get into a huge fight? He didn't go into details but I know he cares for her no matter what he said. I'm not sure of his reasoning for whatever he may have done, but his thoughts about y/n are painfully obvious..' Rin had been a restless sleeper and in his restlessness he'd whispered in his sleep. And those whispers were about you. Isagi had asked about what he was dreaming about or what was on his mind..but rin didn't give him any answers. But what he said and continued to say was enough of an answer in it's self. Whatever weighed on his mind had everything to do with you.

Turning to another team, otoya, karasu and yukimiya seemed to be talking about something.. Something that visibly upset the three of them. 'Maybe a friend of theirs didn't make it?' He just hoped that two of his friends hadn't ended up the same.

Figures appear out of the smoke as the door fully lifted. Four people but none of them being the two he wanted. 'Will it be kunigami or y/n..?' Isagi's eyebrows lower, upset that he may have a preference for which of you two it would be.

But it was neither you or rensuke.

It was none other than that blonde friend of yours.

Shidou ryusei.

So that meant that both you and kunigami had lost. Tearing his eyes from the team in front of him, to look back at your friends. Only the one team wasn't surprised, so the friend that those three were talking about must have been you. Otoya held his head down as the other two looked just as miserable. Isagi switched his gaze over to the boy who seemed more upset then the others, who else then rin itoshi. The dark haired itoshi stared down at his feet, fiddling with his fingers anxiously. Picking at any dead skin that littered his fingers.

But that was almost nothing in comparison to the blonde going on a rampage. "There's no way she could lose man! If she lost it's because of shitbag over there." Gesturing to rin who's heavy guilt that loomed over him, gradually faded from his conscious at shidou's claim. Ryusei hunched over, hands in his pockets as he calmly stepped over to rin. "It's probably because of all you put her through that she got fucked over like she did." Pressing his finger up against rin's chest with one hand still stuffed in his pocket.

"Yeah.." He sighed, avoiding eye contact with ryusei.

"Yeah?? Yeah..? Thats all you've got? Youve gotta be fucking kidding me." The blonde boy laughed, pulling his finger off rin and filled his empty pocket. "Seriously fuck you itoshi." The boy was unusually calm. His strangely calm additude on top of finally using his real name..shidou was beyond pissed.

"I took it to far and my pride got in the way, I'm sorry.. Is that what you wanted? Just want me to tell my all my shit to you?" Ryu turned around while everyone lost interest as the small 'fight' ended.

"Least you realize it but don't tell me that..Tell her."

But as for everyone else that had been on your team in the second selection, every single on of them felt as though it was their fault. Especially eita. As he was the one on your team last, and as far as he knows..your last team. He feels that if he would have played better, trained more, had more sleep, ate more food, if he had done anything differently than maybe..just maybe you wouldn't have lost. Deep within his stomach..He felt butterflies. The guilt he beared felt like to much to handle. But butterflies are supposed to be beautiful...aren't they?

This feeling he was experiencing was anything but pretty. The flutters in his stomach would be better described as moths.

A cold and damp sensation filled his gut. The guilt felt like a plauge.

Even though otoya felt the most responsible for your downfall the others felt the same. No matter if they felt that it was soley their fault their guilt tormented them the same.

Even though chigiri and reo were only on your team for a short amount of time, they felt that they were also to blame as well. If only chigiri was faster when he was still with you. If only reo made better calls. Then you might still be with them.

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'She's not responding..I really am sorry y/n...' A few missed calls, and unread messages filled your notifications. Sae was unfortunate enough to decide to mend his relationship with you at the worst possible time. He thought you'd forgiven him, his apology wasn't the best so maybe it was his fault. After all he ignored you first...

'If she is just ignoring me I guess I'd deserve it..' He just barely admitted to himself, but if you were giving him the same treatment, then you might talk to him again soon..

𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃𝐍'𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔?

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