Best Part of Me

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I don't know how long I've been inside my house, or have lost track of days and hours that I had caged myself inside the dark.

Today, I feel like my body was numb, my visions were spinning and I couldn't remember when was the last time I ate, or when was the last time I stood up, or how many days has it been, or when was the last time I stopped crying.

My whole body feel so weak that my knees were trembling and jelly everytime I decide to stand up. I reached for a bottle of water beside me, the only thing that probably keeps me alive.

I sighed and layed down the floor, staring at the ceiling and letting my tears flow down.

I knew I was in terrible mental state and I need help but somehow I couldn't get myself up. I just want everything to end.

Should I? Should I end everything here?

All the ugly thoughts vanished for a while when I heard 3 soft knocks at my door. I sat down, staring at it.

I was afraid to open it. It might be a media, an attacker that was sent by my parents, a reporter, or worse a person who seeks revenge for my parent's evilness. I crawled away from the door and gripped my water bottle tightly.

The knocks continued.

"Zoe, it's me."

My forehead creased when I heard a familiar voice.

The knocks stopped, yes, please stop.

I was curling, covering my ears, and resting my head on my knees when a blinding lights crawl slowly inside.

Mabilis na napaangat ang aking mata at tumingin sa pinto na ngayon ay nakabukas na. Literal na napanganga ako ng makita ang lalaki na nakatayo, papasok at nakatitig sa akin.

He looked shocked, and so am I. He suddenly run towards me and kneeled infront of me, he held my hand that was covering my ears and looked straight to my eyes.

"Fuck Zoe, are you okay?" He asked.

I was just staring at him, unable to comprehend what was happening, thinking if this was hallucination or real. How the hell was he able to get inside? I knew I locked the door.

My eyes were going back and forth to him and the door. Did he just destroyed my lock?

"Zoe, please answer me." He whispered, his warm hand cupped my face, his thumb brushed my cheek when my eyes unconsciously started to shed tears.

"A-am I hallucinating?" I asked.

"No. I'm here." He suddenly pulled me and caged me inside his arms. His body was warm, his hug was comforting but as much as I want to be happy that finally someone was here, I can't. My mind can't be happy.

"I..I want to be alone Xav." I whispered. He let go from the hug, he held my shoulder and looked straight to my eyes.

"You are total mess right now Zoe. I'm sorry I can't leave you at this state." He helped me get up. When I was already sitting at the couch he went to get a glass of water and took something out of his pocket. A chocolate bar.

"You were not answering my calls for three days, I was worried. Please eat this for now, I will call a food del--"

"Xav, please. I don't want anything right now."

He stopped talking, he stared at me and clenched his jaw. I pressed my lip to stop myself from crying, he kneeled again and stared into my eyes.

"You look like you're 2 days away from death, Zoe. If you keep being like this, I had no choice but to take you to hospital."

He said firmly like he mean every words he said. I don't want to go to hospital, I don't want anyone to worry about me. I wiped my tears and nodded, I forced myself to smile and took the chocolate bar from him.

I guess I just had to pretend I'm okay.

"We'll meet someone today and I need you to be in your best condition before we discuss something important. I want to make sure you're okay." He said.

"I'm okay. I'll take a shower and tidy up my house. I'll visit you to the firm when I'm ready." I whispered. He nodded and hugged me again.

I hugged him back tightly.

I was grateful he came just on time to save me from my thoughts.

After that, I decided to take a hot shower and wore a simple shirt and a pants. I went out of the bathroom and saw Xav preparing a food at the table.

That was the first proper meal that I had these past few days, I feel a bit better than I was awhile ago.

"You told me we'll meet someone." I asked while he was driving his car towards his law firm.

"Yes, he told me you were friends before. He actually asked for your address but I did not gave it since I am not sure if you really knew each other." He said.

I creased my forehead. As far as I knew I had limited group of friends before, I'm sure it wouldn't be Zeph or Jordan since they knew where I lived.

"What's his name?" I asked. Tumingin ito saglit at napakagat sa ibabang labi nito.

"Damn, I was so busy that I forgot to ask his name." He whispered, I chuckled at him.

"It's okay. Can you describe what he looked like?" I asked but I think it was not needed since we already arrived at the law firm.

"We're here. I hope he's still waiting inside." He opened the car door for me and we both went inside his office.

From our distance, I could hear noises inside Xav's office. Those were familiar voices so I walked fast and initiated to open the door.

As soon as I opened the door, all eyes were on me but my eyes landed to the guy staring at me, he was shocked at first but he eventually stood up, smiled and walked towards me.

My mouth literally gaped open, my eyes started to get blurry and I could feel a lump on my throat.

The only family I had.

"Jonas." I whispered. He suddenly hugged me tight, I wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged him even tighter.

"Damn, I missed you so much." He whispered.

I was literally crying like a baby. All the emotions I had these past few days, all the pain and sadness flooded me, I broke down in front of them and let out all emotions from my heart.

He was brushing my hair and back, he was sniffing and was obviously crying.

I grew up with Jonas, since I was a kid he was the one who stayed beside me during the times when I needed my parents the most. We might not be blood related but he was the only person I can consider a family. I treat him as a real brother.