Best Part of Me

11

3:30 pm when I arrived at the city park. Tinadtad ko na ng text messages si Ash to remind him to come. I was very excited and happy today, talagang pinaghandaan ko to. I was wearing high waisted short, and a tank top. I also put on light make up.

I looked at my watch, 3:45. I started fixing the books and notes that I printed last night. I organized everything at the table.

I got bored so I decided to make an advance reading while I was waiting for him. Masyado akong nadala sa pagbabasa ko so when I looked at my watch, it was already 4:30pm.

I roamed my eyes trying to find a single trace of him but to no avail. I stood up and waited for him a little longer, baka na-late lang or may hangover.

But 5pm came, and he's still not here. I sighed and just decided to review the lessons all by my self. He told me he wouldn't go but I still waited for him.

Inabot ako ng 6:30pm sa park, I decided to stop nung medyo dumidilim na. I fixed all my things and walked away.

I was disappointed, but it's okay. Maybe he has something urgent to do, or maybe he really forgot. I smiled bitterly while walking. Yeah, he forgot or he didn't really wanted to go.

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I spent my whole sunday reviewing for the final exam but I was always distracted. God, I need to focus!

Monday came, today would be our Prelim exam. Maaga akong pumasok at dumiretso ako sa room.

I reviewed yesterday but I was so distracted that I felt it wasn't enough. I skipped a lot of lessons because I was running out time, I need to sleep too. That's why I came to school early, para maghabol ng review.

I put on my headphones and focused myself on reviewing. Zeph greeted me when she arrived and she reviewed her notes also. Our exam proctor has arrived kaya tinago ko na ang mga notes ko.

"Jan ka talaga uupo girl? Nakakapanibago ah?" Natatawang tanong ni Zeph. I looked at Ash, he was there sitting boredly. Hindi pumasok ngayon si Jordan because he would not take a prelim exam.

I want to go near him, pero pag naaalala ko na hindi siya sumipot ay naiinis ako when I shouldn't even be. It was my fault for forcing him and I shouldn't be mad because he already told me he wouldn't come.

Nagsimula na kaming mag-exam, some questions were easy and some weren't.

We spent the whole day draining our brains, and non-stop answering of test questionnaires. I didn't even bother taking a lunch because I was busy catching up with lessons that I haven't read yet.

After almost forever of torture, the exam has ended.

"That was very difficult!" Reklamo ni Zeph habang inaayos namin ang gamit namin.

"Are you going to the ball tomorrow?" She asked me.

"Of course, I did not make the research so I don't have a choice." Natatawang sagot ko. I still need to convince Ash to go with me.

"By the way, see you tomorrow Zeph. I should go." I kissed her cheeks at mabilis na lumabas sa room. Hinabol ko si Ash, he was headed at the faculty room and I don't even know why so I just followed him.

Sobrang bilis niya.

"Ash!" Nang maabutan ko siya ay palabas na siya sa faculty room. He just stared at me at nilampasan na ako.

Tatakbo ulit sana ako upang habulin siya ng lumabas mula sa faculty room ang accounting professor namin.

"Oh Ms. Adisson, magpapasa ka rin ba ng Research paper gaya ni Mr. Chance?" Tanong niya.

"H-he... He submitted?" I asked in disbelief. I don't know why I felt my heart clench. So it was final, he wouldn't attend the ball. Mabilis akong tumakbo at hinabol si Ash, I saw him walking towards the parking lot.

"ASH!" I shouted really loud, he stopped walking and looked at me coldly.

"Why... Why did you submitted a research paper?" Tanong ko.

"Anong paki mo?" He answered.

"Sabi ko ikaw ang date ko! Everyone has their dates except for me, iiwan mo ba ako dun?!" I shouted at him but he just scoffed and smirked.

"Stop messing with me and why the hell are you even bothering me?" He asked coldly.

"I told you I like you!" I shouted at him desperately.

I could feel my hand trembling from nervousness.

I like him and I want him to be mine.

This wasn't the first time that I confessed to someone, I've confessed countless times already, I said 'i like you' numerous times to different guys, and I always got what I wanted.

But this time, it was totally different.

He just stared at me, like I said something stupid and funny. He smirked and put his hands inside his pocket.

"So?" Walang ganang sagot niya. "Dapat ba gustuhin din kita?" Dagdag nito.

My mouth literally gaped open, that fucking hurts! Pakiramdam ko ay inapakan ang pagkatao ko sa sinabi niya. I think I just lost all my pride and dignity! What the hell!

I laughed slowly and sarcastically, hindi makapaniwalang tinuro ko ang sarili ko.

"You mean, you're rejecting me?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ko.

The hell is wrong with him?!

"You know, if my Dad finds out about this--"

"Go on, tell it to your Dad crybaby." He said cutting me off.

He opened the door of his car and started his engine. I was literally dumbfounded, I don't know if I should be hurt, or annoyed or mad or all of the above!

I panicked when his car moved and was about to leave me standing there. I managed to get myself together and ran after him. Hinarang ko ang sarili ko sa daanan niya, kaya't mabilis siyang napapreno. I heared the loud squeak of his car breaks.

Sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko, this was the first time that I have done something as stupid as this.

Lumabas siya sa kanyang sasakyan at malakas na sinarado ang kanyang pintuan. I froze when he suddenly walked towards me, with a blazing cold and sharp eyes.

Nakakatakot. I was beyond intimidated but I managed to make myself look brave.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?!" He shouted. His voice echoed throughout the whole parking lot.

"I... I told you I... I like you." Those words came out like a whisper.

I don't know why, I'm very much afraid but why does this hurts even more.

His eyes were cold like he doesn't even give a fuck about my existence.

"I told you to stay the fuck out of my life. Ano bang hindi mo maintindihan don?!" He shouted, really really loud. His veins on his neck were visible.

"Stop being childish! I hate you, I hate your fucking existence, I hate everything about you!"

He paused for a while and breathe frustratedly.

"Get out of my way." He said coldly before turning his back and walk inside his car.

I unconsciously stepped aside to let his car pass, and just watch him drove away.

I bit my lower lip to stop myself from sobbing.

That's so mean.

And it hurts.