Best Part of Me

14

"Ano hindi ka papasok?" Tanong ni Jonas pagkapasok niya sa kwarto ko.

"Yeah." I said and covered myself with a blanket.

I was really excited going to school before, I was always motivated, I was always excited but everything suddenly changed for me. I felt like I lost all the motivations and I just want to sleep until I get better. But the thing is, it doesn't even get better in just one night.

And I don't even know when will I get better.

Normal ba na masaktan kahit wala namang kayo? Normal ba ma-heartbroken kahit walang label?

"If you parents found out about this, they won't be happy." Jonas warned me.

"Do I look like I'm on a state to care for their happiness?" I answered.

"No, but this might make everything worse that it already is." I groaned and stood up.

I looked at Jonas and I could feel my heavy eye bags because of endless crying over him.

"I want to transfer school." I suggested.

Yeah, might as well transfer to another school. I can't bare seeing the two of them in a fucking single university. Jonas sighed and sat at my bed.

"Are you sure about that?" Tanong niya. Hindi ako nakasagot, am I really sure about this? Just the thought of not seeing him anymore just made it more painful.

"See, you're not even sure. Don't let your emotions decide for you or you might end up regretting at the end." Muli akong umupo sa kama, pinatong ko ang baba ko sa tuhod ko. I felt like I was about to burst in tears again.

"Why don't you just ask him kung sino ba talaga yung babaeng yun? Make things clear before making your next steps." I scoffed and rolled my eyes at him.

"It was obvious Jonas! The way he care and worry about her showed how much she means to him. He wasn't pushing her away, he wasn't shouting at her, he wasn't cold at her. Like... Like..." I paused and tried to stop myself from sobbing.

"Like what he always does, to me." he stared at me and sighed. This was the first time that Jonas and I talked as deep and as emotional as this.

"There's no other way than to let go." Iniwas ko ang mata ko pinunasan ang luha ko. Right, I should let go. I just need to accept the fact that I can't get everything that I want, and that's him.

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I skipped my first class because of that little drama with Jonas. I hope Ash would be absent for today coz I don't know how would I face him without getting hurt.

I went straight to our room and the first subject just finished, my blockmates were talking with each other while waiting for the next professor.

"Omg, I thought hindi ka papasok!" Zeph shouted as soon as I entered the room. She suddenly ran towards me and hugged me tight, I smiled and we kissed each other's cheek.

"I missed you!" I told her.

"Missyou too!" Sabay kaming naglakad papunta sa upuan namin, but I immediately stopped when I saw him.

He was here.

And he was looking at me.

I gulped and immediately avoided his eyes. Tumabi ako kay Zeph kaya't tila nabigla siya.

"Dito ka uupo?" Nagtatakang tanong niya dahil sanay siya na sa tabi ni Ash ako umuupo.

"Yeah." I answered.

"Did something happened?" She asked. I just sighed and shook my head, I don't want to tell it. It was embarrassing enough.

"Seriously? Parang nung isang gabi lang halos mamatay ka sa kilig, now look at you. You're not even looking at him." Puna niya.