Our Fate [OUR SERIES #2]

CHAPTER 31

'Give me another chance please. Kahit awa nalang, Dhayne. Kahit awa mo na lang ang natitira...'

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I covered my ears as I heard loud knocks on my door. My parents outside my room were worriedly calling my name and I was sitting on the floor inside, crying. My sobs were loud, my head felt heavy from crying, and my heart sank that I couldn't breathe. 

"Anak, please open the door. We're here." Mom cried desperately. 

I shook my head and covered my ears tighter. I couldn't grasp the talk I had with Thana. After I heard everything, I ran away and went home. I called my parents and asked for their help on my way. I need help… I need it. 

I did not stay in the park. For what? My heart couldn't take it. I don't think I could survive this heartache anymore. I don't think anyone can save me in this downfall. I don't think I can last a day living this ill-fated life. 

I've been suffering since day one. And everyone told me that tomorrow or the next day will be better. But why is it getting worse? Why is my fate torturing me as time goes by? Am I not deserving of anything? Don't I deserve to be happy? 

Thana is a married woman. She's fucking married to Khairo, who happened to be my cousin. And they have a child. I dreamt of putting an Aragon in her name but I didn't expect it to be my cousin's. This is unfair… 

I punched my chest and cried loudly. My breath started to shorten and I started to feel the heaviness all over me. I couldn't lift a finger until I lost consciousness. 

"DOMINIQUE, it's happening. Do you think all of these are happening because of what we did to Dhayne and Gayle? Hindi kaya si Dhayne ang sumasalo ng karma natin?" I heard my mother's shaky voice. 

"Love, please calm down." 

"How can I, Dominique?! Anak natin ang pinag-uusapan dito! The woman she loves is married to her cousin! Have you imagined how dreadful our daughter might feel?! She's suffering the same way as I did and you know exactly how those years went." She started to get angrier. "We shouldn't leave her side, Dominique." 

"I understand, love. Let's talk to Dhayne later. Maybe a vacay outside the country will free her mind." Rinig kong pagpapakalma ni Dad kay Mommy. 

I slowly opened my eyes. I held my cheeks as I felt the dried tears. "Anak? Are you okay? Do you need anything?" Tanong ni mommy. 

I cleared my throat before answering. "N-Nauuhaw ako." Paos na sambit ko. 

"Patty, get her some water. Faster!" Utos ni Dad sa kasambahay na nakatayo malapit sa pinto. 

"Anak, sabi ng doktor ay kulang ka raw sa dugo at resistensya kaya kailangan mo ng mahabang pahinga." Inalalayan ako ni Mommy na maupo at agad na inabot sa 'kin ang tubig na dala ni Patty. 

Hindi ako sumagot. Binalik ko sa kanya ang baso na hawak ko pagkatapos kong inumin ang laman non. Ibinaling ko ang tingin kay Daddy. Bakas ang nag aalala niyang mga mata. Si Mommy naman ay kakagaling lang sa pag iyak. 

I ignored them at bumalik sa pagkakahiga. Wala ako sa tamang kondisyon para bigyan ng pansin ang presensya nila. Tingin ko'y isang buka lang ng bibig ko ay napapagod ako. Isang lingon ko lang ay nawawalan ako ng lakas. Nanghihina ako at masyadong mabigat ang pakiramdam ko. 

"Do you want to temporarily travel outside the country, anak?" Alok ni Daddy. "We can buy a villa there for you in Japan. To clear your mind." Dugtong pa niya. 

"Perhaps a private island in Maldives?" Sabat naman ni Mommy. 

"You can get back to collecting sports car and-"