In This Darkness

You Are Not Good For Me

(Lori's pov)

Vanessa stayed at our house for a few more hours, after which Bill took her back to her house.She is a very pleasant person, and I am glad to have met her.Tom and I stayed home alone again.

"We were supposed to have a New Year's Eve party at our shared house, but since I'm so fucking wounded, none of that is going to happen."Tom said to me, a little annoyed, while we were sitting on the couch.And I answered him nicely, grabbing his big fist, "When you recover, you're going to throw a big party in that house."He looked at me warmly and smiled, then he put his big fist on my flushed face and rubbed his thumb on my cheek.Every time he touches me, I love him more and more. When his soft skin passes over mine, my heart flutters.He gave me a kiss on the mouth and on my neck. I loved when I felt his cold piercing on my neck.

(The next day 21 in the evening)

Vanessa and I were in the kitchen preparing food. Tom and Bill were in the living room and we heard them giggling in the living room."I'm so glad we met and that you're here tonight," I said to Vanessa as she baked some cookies.She looked away from the cookies and looked at me, her eyes were warm and blue like the ocean, I could see the pure ocean in them."I'm glad too," she said politely, and I just smiled at her and looked away from her.She came closer to me, then she climbed onto the table where I was preparing food and sat on it."And how come you hang out with Tokio Hotel, I don't think I've seen you before, and they didn't mention you either."Vanessa asked me as she rested her hands on the table and swung her legs.I looked at her, my eyes were a little blurry from tears, and then I looked away. I saw that she was confused by my reaction, and then she got off the table and put her hand on my shoulder and asked "Is everything okay?"

"Tom kidnapped me, it's been a few days..."I answered her, and then my tears started to flow by themselves.She hugged me and her warm words comforted me "I'm here, don't worry"She moved away from me, her hands were on my shoulders, she looked at my body a little and then she asked, a little confused, "How old are you, honey?"She patted my shoulder, I saw a little sadness on her face."He raped me, but I feel bad for saying it, but I think I'm starting to love him dangerously," I told her quietly without looking her in the eye.First, she looked at me sadly and worriedly, "What about that jerk, I'm sorry for that.", and then she looked at me a little more calmly, smiled strongly, and then said, "I know, that charm of the Kaulitz brothers, I think I like Bill, but I think he's just playing me around, I think it's all his mask."She went back to her cookies and I was smiling at her because I knew Bill liked her. I came closer to her and then quietly said "You know the night before we met, Bill was talking to me about you, and he said...yeah he likes you."She was a little surprised, she jumped up, but she didn't have time to say anything to me, because Georg and Gustav entered the house.