In This Darkness

I Will Only Be Yours

(Listen to the song I put in this chapter, because it describes Tom and Lori, and you will enjoy reading it.)

(Loris pov)

Vanessa and I were going downstairs. I heard all the men's giggles except for Tom's voice, which had always been the loudest before.We entered the living room and Vanessa ran to sit next to Bill on the couch. "How are you girls?" Gustav asked us politely."Excellent," said Vanessa, moving next to Bill, and he turned to her and gave her a light kiss on the lips.I answered quietly, "Fine." It seemed to me that Georg and Gustav didn't know that I tried to escape, and that's better.I avoided eye contact with Tom. I sat on the couch where Bill and Vanessa were sitting. Tom and Georg were sitting on the couch to the side, and Gustav was sitting in an armchair.The boys were playing cards, and Vanessa and I were watching. Vanessa was leaning on Bill's shoulder, and I was just watching the game. She would glance at Tom. Tom was smoking cigars, he didn't take them out of his mouth.I tried to avoid eye contact with Tom, but that was not possible. Every time I looked at him, his eyes were fixed on me, and a small smile spread across his face.

"Fuck you Tom." said Georg, throwing all the cards on the table and turning his head. Tom laughed, because he won another round. "I will always be better than you."Georg looked back at the cards, smiled and shook his head."We want another round?" asked Gustav. "We will." answered Bill looking back at Vanessa who was leaning on his shoulder and leaving a trail of lips on her hair.Vanessa smiled cheerfully and closed her eyes.Gustav was shuffling the cards, and I turned my gaze to Tom. His elbows were resting on his knees and he was watching Gustav. I observed his beautiful face from the side, he has a gorgeous side profile.He looked at me, lowering his head a little, so that I wouldn't notice him, but I was already watching him. I quickly looked away from him, and then looked back at him again. He had a smile on his face and lowered his head, and I also lowered my head, and a smile spread across my face.

The round lasted a long time, and I yawned during it and I needed sleep. I was too tired from today.I grabbed Vanessa's hand and softly told her "I'm going to sleep, I'm too tired." She looked at me and smiled, she replied "Okay, rest."I got up from the couch and said to everyone "I'm going to sleep guys, I'm too tired." I looked at them all, avoiding to look at Tom. Tom was leaning on the couch, his head was raised towards me and his hands were on his stomach. "Come on, stay a little longer."said Gustav."Excuse me."I said with a smile and greeted them.I started to get out and headed for the stairs. I looked once more at Tom, who was looking at me predatorily.I looked away and headed for the upper floor. His infectious look instilled some kind of infection in my heart, I was crazy about him.I entered the room. I turned on the lamp that was next to my bed and illuminated part of the room.I took off my sweatshirt and pants and put them on the chair.I put on one of Tom's loose t-shirts, and underneath I only had some of Tom's boxers.I lay down in bed and covered myself with a duvet. I hadn't turned off the lamp yet. It only illuminated a part of this huge room and I enjoyed this silence.

Lying in bed like that, I heard someone's steps up the stairs. Tom's familiar steps. I was holding the quilt and looking towards the door.The door opened and a large shadow of Tom appeared. He peered over the door. "You're awake." he said entering the room and closing the door.I didn't answer him, I just followed his graceful steps towards me, and his warm smile on his face.He stood a little above me, and then sat down next to me. His elbows were on his knees again, and his gaze was lowered. He didn't say anything, he just looked palely at the floor.I just watched him, raising my head and leaning against the wall."I was a monster, I know and I regret it."said Tom, all the while with his head down.I watched him and didn't say anything. He turned his head slightly towards me and his eyes were fixed on me."I'm sorry Lori. Do you forgive me?" he asked me, looking into my eyes and lips, and his eyes were watering.I looked away from him and turned my head to the other side."I don't know ...no."I said slowly and quietly, not looking at him."I understand you." he said, looking away from me and running his hand over his nose.I automatically turned towards him. His answer surprised me, I thought he was going to get angry.

"You sleep here, I'll sleep in the other room," he said, looking at me and giving me a weak smile. I watched him in amazement as he got up from my bed and headed for the door.I watched him leave,but I didn't want him to leave. I wanted him here by my side."Tom." I said. He turned to me and stood by the door. "Say," he said.I got up from the bed and approached him, all silently, but watching him. He looked at me in amazement.I stood in front of him and watched, not even knowing what to say. I came a step closer to him and wrapped my arms around his neck. He grabbed my waist, not even knowing what was happening."I don't forgive you, but I love you, I can't hide that." I told him, looking at his beautiful lip piercing.He watched me with a beautiful smile. I put my face closer to him and said to him more quietly, "Do whatever you want with me, I'm yours." I bit my tongue a little for saying this, but I was honest.He kissed my lips and I closed my eyes, enjoying the taste of his lips and feeling the cold metal on my lips.He picked me up, and I hung my legs around his waist. His hands were on his waist, gently going down to his buttocks. I removed my lips from him, and he watched me with his beautiful eyes. The moon reflected off his greasy headband."Trust me, you'll be safe with me." he said looking into my eyes and lips. I smiled at him and returned my lips to his. I closed my eyes and he gently carried me to the bed.He put me down gently on the bed. I opened my eyes, making eye contact with him. I was lying on the bed, while he took off his shirt and his beautiful body was soon over me.He smiled at me, brushed my hair from my face and brought his lips back to mine. His hand slid under my shirt, touching me gently. He took my shirt and started to take it off. I raised my hands and relaxed. He lowered his lips to my neck. and slid his lips down my body. He walked over to the boxers and grabbed them. "Can I?" Tom asked me, thinking he was going to take off my boxers.

I raised my head from the bed and looked up at Tom. I nodded my head as a sign that he could, and I was sure about this. I put my head back on the bed and sighed deeply.I felt the boxers slide down my legs, and I breathed deeply. Tom moved over my body and came to my face. He moved closer to my lips and said, "Promise me that you'll only be mine." I grabbed his face lightly and answered him "I promise Tom, I will be yours forever."He smiled and pressed his lips to mine.