In This Darkness

What Should I Do

(Bills pov)

Everyone sat down on bar stools, and I walked over to the refrigerator and took out a whiskey.As I took out my drink, I thought about Vanessa. She hasn't called me all day and I'm already worried.I sighed as I turned back to the three of them. I placed the glasses in front of them and began to pour them from Tom's glass.As I poured into Lori's glass, I watched her, and when I moved over to George's glass, I asked her, "Lori, have you heard from Vanessa? She doesn't answer my phone all day."I looked at Lori again, and she looked at me worried and confused, and then answered, "She didn't call me back."I nodded my head and took a deep breath closing the bottle of whiskey."You didn't go to her place?" Lori asked me and she looked worried enough about Vanessa as much as I was.I shook my head and said "I always call her first, maybe I should see what's up with her."Tom tipped his whiskey glass and then said smugly, "Brother, if she's screwing with someone else, I can handle it."I looked at him sullenly and replied, "Vanessa doesn't fuck with anyone,I know her."

(Vanessas pov)

I was lying in my bed, holding Claudia's number and spinning it between my fingers. I didn't answer Bill all day, I didn't have the courage knowing that I started loving someone else next to him. I love him, but I saw something in Claudia that attracted me.I held up the paper with her number above me and looked at it.I got up slowly from the bed and continued to watch him. I slowly took the phone out of my pocket and started dialing Claudia's number.Before I called her, I sighed and closed my eyes. The phone rang, and I held my hand on my head.I heard her voice over the phone and she said "Hello." I opened my eyes and immediately answered her "Claudia, I'm Vanessa."I paced the room like crazy waiting for her answer. "Oh, Vanessa, it's you. How can I help you?" Claudia said on the call.I stopped at the window and closed my eyes again and asked her "So I thought if you want to see me tomorrow, take a walk or something like that?""Oh yes, wonderful," she said. My heart fluttered listening to her sweet voice."I'll let you know tomorrow when and where we'll meet." Claudia added once more, and with a smile on my face, I answered her more calmly, "Okay then. Bye." She greeted me and I slowly hung up the phone.

I looked out the window, a smile spread across my face. But soon I felt like a weight in my chest. I remembered Bill and the weight in my chest was getting stronger and stronger. My heart wanted to call Claudia, but my brain didn't, but it did,the heart was stronger.I sat on the bed, while I put my hand on my chest and it was as if I felt some pain for Bill. I closed my eyes, and tears started to slide down my face. I love Bill and I don't know how I would do without him, but I couldn't help but I call Claudia, I liked her. My heart ached for Bill, he would never do this to me, I know how much he loves me, but I had to.

I went and showered, ate and got ready. I'll go to the Tokio Hotel shared house, so I won't be suspicious.

(Loris pov)

I was worried about where Vanessa is, since she hasn't heard from Bill all day, but I hope everything will be okay.Some images of what could have happened to Vanessa passed through my head, but soon my thoughts were interrupted by Tom. I felt his hand between my joined legs. I looked at him, and he was bringing his face closer to mine, while he was pulling his hand deeper between my legs.I felt his piercing on my lip and I closed my eyes. I didn't care about Tom right now, I just wanted to know if Vanessa was okay.We moved from the kitchen to the living room. Soon Gustav came with his things and joined us.All the boys were cheerful and talking and laughing, but I could notice that Bill was a little nervous and angry, I've never seen him like this.As we were sitting in the oversized living room, Vanessa appeared at the door of the living room. "Hello, friends." she said with a smile and walked towards us.I sighed and smiled at Vanessa seeing that she was fine and here.Bill got up from the couch and immediately walked over to Vanessa. He hugged her and said"You are fine, thank God." She pulled back and gave him a kiss on the lips. "Why didn't you answer my phone?" Bill asked her. She looked to the side and answered"I had problems in the family, but now everything is fine."

Bill nodded and kissed her on the lips. She then pulled away and ran to me. I got up from the couch and hugged her.Pulling away from her I said to her "You got me worried you fool." Vanessa looked down and sighed "Sorry." she said.I smiled at her and she smiled at me, then turned to the boys and said "How are you guys?"They answered her, while she returned to sit next to Bill. I was sitting next to Tom and Gustav and I watched Vanessa and Bill and they were talking quietly, but I couldn't hear them because of the noise these three were making.