In This Darkness

I Don't Like This Place

(Lori's pov)

This Vanessa dress fit me beautifully. We were going down the stairs, the boys were already ready and waiting for us in the dining room.I noticed Tom looking at me with his deadly gaze and turning the car key between his fingers.I ignored him, like the whole day. We haven't talked since morning, and that's what I wanted.I was tempted by his look, but I refused it, I accepted my decision, I have to lose my fucking feelings for this piece of shit."Let's go then," Vanessa said when we got off. Bill admired her and came close to her, wrapping one arm around her waist.Tom stood on the other side of Bill and gave him the car keys, because Tom couldn't drive.Georg and Gustav got into their cars. Bill unlocked his car and sat behind the wheel, Tom in the passenger seat, and Vanessa and I in the back.Vanessa grabbed my hand, quietly saying, "I love parties, I live for it." and she had a slight smile on her face.I nodded and smiled at her.As we drove, Bill talked to Tom, but Tom seemed uninterested in the story and just nodded, looking out the window at the lit streets of Los Angeles

We arrived at their huge, communal house.There were many cars, much more than last time. People had already arrived, they were just waiting for Tokio Hotel. There were also some people who were drinking and smoking outside.The house was beautiful, there were no neighbors around, and it had a large swimming pool, which Tom's house does not have.Even if the house was beautiful, I didn't like the place that much, because last time an innocent soul died here, that is Cruce. Tom killed that innocent boy just because of me, I felt guilty.When we got out of the car, the people who were outside immediately started approaching the Tokio Hotel. Some of the girls who were outside screamed with happiness when they saw Tom and pushed themselves between him, and he wrapped his arms around some two girls and entered the house.

As soon as we entered, the music stopped, just like last time, out of respect for Tokio Hotel.I escaped from them, I didn't want everyone to see me with them. Vanessa ran up to me and was smiling all the time because she was here, but I still didn't feel like being here.I sat down on the couch like last time and sighed deeply, and Vanessa went to get a drink. I didn't feel like being here, but at least I have Vanessa.I saw a familiar face, Catharine, the whore who attacked me last time because of Tom.She was with the same two friends as last time, and I saw how they were watching me and saying something, smiling. Catharine came up to me and sat down next to me again. "Oh, you're Tom's slut."I looked at her angrily and snapped "I'm not anyone's slut, I only see that you are and you want Tom's dick"Her two friends stood and glared at me, and Katarina, who was sitting next to me, grabbed the back of my hair and said, spitting at me"How are you talking?"Her mouth stank, which made me laugh. She held my hair tightly, and I managed to grab her hair, the back of my head with my hand.I tore her back, and she screamed and released her hand from my hair, trying to grab my face. I was holding her hair so tightly that her head was hanging on top of the couch.I sat facing her still holding her hair and pulling her back.I hated this girl and I was glad I pulled her hair so hard. Her friends were trying to separate me from her, and the people around were just shouting and cheering for me.I have never hurt anyone before, I felt something inside me, I felt like Tom when he hurts someone. I felt like Tom's demon possessed me and was telling me deep inside that I was making this girl scream.It's like I'm obsessed with something and I can't stop pulling this girl's hair. Part of me wants to stop and another part tells me how to do it. These thoughts came over me, Tom was a bad influence on me and when I thought about it, I pushed Katarina away and quickly moved away from her.

I looked at my hands, I literally pulled out the root of Catharine's hair, and there was a little bit of her blood on my hand. Catharine was crying and holding the back of her head and saw the blood, after which she said "You bitch."Tears gathered in my eyes, I felt how happy I was that I did this, but I never liked people around me to feel bad, just like Tom did to people. I quickly left the room and wiped away the tears that they slowly began to slide down my cheek.As much as Catharine annoyed me, I didn't have to pull out the roots of her hair. I immediately regretted ever coming to this place, it was a terrible place for me. I was looking for Vanessa, I needed her.I went into the kitchen, there was table tennis again, Vanessa was sitting at the kitchen table, and Bill was standing over her and they were kissing dangerously. His hand went under her dress. He gently pulled her from the table and grabbed her hand and led her out of the kitchen.I called her name and she suddenly turned around. "I'll be back in a second, wait." I heard Vanessa say to Bill, after which she approached me."What happened, dear?" she asked me, grabbing my hand. "You left me there alone, with some sluts, they attacked me."I told her a little angrily and took her hand away from mine."Okay dear, I'm sorry, we'll deal with that bitch, but I have to go now."I didn't even manage to say anything to her, she just kissed me on the cheek and ran towards Bill, grabbing him by the arm and they left the room.

"Stupid Vanessa" I thought to myself, I thought I was going to be with her tonight and she went to fuck Bill. I went back to the kitchen and drank the juice, which was not there last time.I leaned on the kitchen table and drank my juice, from the kitchen I had a view of the exit door and I could see Catharine coming out of the house with her friends and she had a wound on the back of her head. I closed my eyes and continued to drink my juice. I was thinking where Tom, I haven't seen him anywhere.

(Toms pov)

I was sitting on a chair and people kept coming up to say hello to me. I didn't feel like talking, I just wanted to fuck that little ungrateful fool, Lori, again.She really pissed me off today, I wanted to punish her, but she will hate me even more. Some idiot sat next to me and kept talking, I didn't feel like listening to him, but I did, Georg was talking to that guy normally, and I don't know where Bill and Gustav are.I saw Sophie walking up the stairs, she was a girl with a darker complexion and had brown hair and dark brown eyes. All the boys wanted her, but she didn't give herself to everyone easily, but I think I would easily pass for her.I need a whore by my side tonight, she was the real one. She wore a black short skirt that was close to her body and a red short t-shirt that looked more like a bra, but it fit her well.I wanted to fuck Lori tonight, but she had to ruin the day, so now I have to look for a nice bitch. Sophie could have been my fucker for tonight. She went upstairs, carrying two beers.I got up from the chair and slightly adjusted my black greasy ribbon, which was always tied around my head.These two didn't even realize that I left, they just talked, nonsense. I took quick steps towards the stairs, after Sophie.