In This Darkness

Start Over

(Loris pov)

We got to Tom's house. We got out of the car and Tom put his hand on my waist walking next to me. We entered the house and I heard someone running from the living room.It was Vanessa. When she saw me, her smile spread from ear to ear. She ran into my arms and I hugged her." I thought I wouldn't see you again." she said in a hug. She put her hands on my shoulders and told me "Don't do that to us.", and I gave her a weak smile."Do you want something to eat?"Tom asked me, leaving my back and placing his hand on my shoulder. I turned to him. His beautiful face shape was perfect. I smiled at him and Vanessa interrupted us and said "Let's go to kitchen then eat something."Vanessa took my hand and led me towards the kitchen, and I looked at Tom a little. I sat on a chair while Vanessa took eggs out of the fridge and planned to fry them. She was asking me questions, like when I ran away and that shit.I was too lost in my thoughts, I didn't even listen to what he was asking me. I was thinking about how normal Tom behaved, I thought he would punish me like he said before, if I tried to run away.I thought about our long hug, and how it leaves traces of lips on my hair. I wanted that kind of love, but not from anyone but from Tom. Tom was a different guy from those I liked before, but he is the most beautiful and the most handsome of them. When I think of Noah, he is a little kitty next to Tom.Soon my thoughts were interrupted by Vanessa, yelling at me "Lori, are you listening?" I looked up at her and replied "Yes, yes I am." She then continued with stupid questions and I answered her. It hurt that I won't see my family anymore, but I have Tom, Vanessa, Bill, and I didn't have such a long time with Georg and Gustav, but they are good guys. Now they are my family and I am safe with them.

I finished eating. Vanessa and I left and headed towards the living room where Tom and Bill were. "Lori needs to rest, so we'll be back later," Vanessa told the Bill and Tom.Bill turned to us and glanced over Vanessa, and then said "It's okay love." Tom didn't answer anything, he just watched me and had a small smile. His small, sweet smile always warmed my heart.Vanessa blew a kiss to Bill and the two of us headed upstairs. I went into the room and rolled over the bed, exhausted, and Vanessa lay down next to me.I was lying there looking at the ceiling. I was thoughtful and Vanessa raised her head towards me and said "I know it's hard for you not to see the old people anymore, but you have us, honey."I turned my head towards her and gave her a weak smile. My family was everything to me and it's very hard for me to come to terms with the fact that I won't see them, but I have to stop thinking about them. Now I have to build a stable relationship with Tom, and Vanessa was like a sister to me.Vanessa turned to the drawer and took the cigars from it, then turned to me and asked, "Would you like some?" I nodded to her. She got out of bed and brought the ashtray that was at the other end of the room. Now I'm back in a sitting position, and Vanessa sits next to me and puts the ashtray between us.We sighed and exhaled tobacco, while talking about some of our old stories. I told her about some of my troubles, about my first kiss, she also told me how she lost her virginity. We talked about some people we both knew. We laughed and giggled.

Vanessa tried to cheer me up and make me laugh and she succeeded. She was now my best friend, my sister, my everything.I turned to Vanessa and said with a smile, "Bill and you, it's all here." She looked at me, rolling her eyes and giggling. I looked away and lowered my head, with a small smile."Tom looked very worried when you disappeared," she said, the smile on my face disappearing. Vanessa came closer to me and with a smile said softly again "Admit you like it". I looked at her and pulled my head out and said "God no."My smile, which was slowly spreading again, betrayed me a little, and she raised an eyebrow and covered her lip with a smile, asked me, "Are you sure." I looked away from her, but I couldn't take the smile off my face. "Vanessa, I'm sure.""Okay." she said, pulling away from me with a smile. I was thinking about my feelings, I couldn't even interpret them myself. Tom is the man who potentially ruined my life, but I can't hide my feelings. I can't against my heart , who wants his attention and his love.

We continued talking. We took Vanessa's phone and for 20 minutes called and called unknown numbers on the phone and pranked people. I always liked to do that in elementary school with my friends.The sun was already falling asleep and the darkness was falling. On the lower floor we heard two more familiar voices besides Bill and Tom, and they were the voices of Georg and Gustav."Do you want to go down now? I mean if you want." Vanessa asked me. I sighed and answered her "Well let's go."