In This Darkness

Don't Jump

(Loris pov)

I lowered my hands from my head and placed them next to my body. Tom told me calmly "Lori." adjusting his black cap on his head so that the wind wouldn't blow him away.He didn't look angry, he looked calm, but scared. But I felt fear again, I was afraid he wouldn't hurt me. He took one step at a time, slowly walking towards me. Soon Bill also came to the roof. He was just standing by the door and left this thing to me and Tom, and he had a gun in his hand.As Tom approached me, I looked behind me to get off somewhere, but I had nowhere to go, and Tom was getting closer with every step.I looked at the edge of the roof and turned my gaze back to Tom, and after that I climbed onto the edge of the roof and shouted at Tom "If you come near me, I'll jump." tears were streaming down my face.Tom froze in place, there was fear and trembling in his eyes, and his braids fluttered from the wind.He turned his head to the left and right and stretched out his hands in my direction saying "Lori, I won't hurt you." He started to take a step towards me, and I shouted "I'll jump if  you take another step towards me. I don't trust you anymore."

Tom froze in place again. He raised his head towards me and let the tears flow, then lowered his head and rested his hands on his hips.I looked back at Bill. He was monitoring the situation and looked concerned, but left me and Tom to handle this.I looked behind me and there was a street full of traffic below. I was afraid of heights and my head was blurry. I looked back at Tom, his head was still down, his hands were on his hips, and the river of tears didn't stop.It was hard for me to watch him cry, because he never cries, but I remained on the edge of the roof. Tom now raised his face to me, he took his cap from his head and threw it to the side, and on his head he had his band of greasy black colors."Don't hurt yourself." said Tom, sobbing, lowering his gaze a little, but regaining his gaze."You have no right to say that, you hurt me the most times." I shouted at him.He looked down again, he was crying and sobbing, I have never seen him like this. "I know, I know, I'm a monster, I've behaved horribly, but I love you." He said and looked at me again, cocking his head to the side.I turned my head to the side and then yelled "You're lying!"He lowered his head again, and then looked up at me again "If you jump, I will too," he said. I didn't answer him. "I don't want to hurt you anymore, I don't want to see you suffer, Lori, I only have you and you You fill every void in my heart, and there are many of them."

He said, while sobbing and crying.The truth was that now I had no one else but him.I shed tears for him, I felt like I should hug him, but I didn't want to. He destroyed me, my family is unhappy because of him, I can't trust him or console him. I turned my back on him, looked below me and prepared to jump.I closed my eyes and took a step to jump, while tears wet my face. I heard Tom's shout of my name, and I held my fist tightly, and started to take a step, but I felt his hands on my hips.He pulled me back and I opened my eyes. I looked up at him, tears were falling as he grabbed my face. I slipped out of his hands and stood in front of him."Lori don't, don't do that." he said. crying.I was broken for him. He stopped me from jumping right now and is crying and suffering because of me, he looked sincere and his emotions were not fake, I could tell.I love him too, I hid it deep inside. I didn't want to let myself fall in love with him because I thought he was lying to me and because he destroyed me, but now I see his sincerity and his love.

His head was down again, his face was red from crying. I ran towards him and held him tightly. My arms were wrapped around his hips, and soon he embraced me too. We didn't let go of each other, I didn't want them to ever let's go.He kissed my hair, and I could feel his tears sliding down my face. I held him tightly, as Tom held me. His head was lowered to my hair and he slowly caressed my wavy, short hair now."I hate you Tom Kaulitz." I said through a whimper as I held him even tighter."I hate you too honey."he said with a small smile, leaving kisses in my hair.We didn't let go of each other's embrace, I enjoyed inhaling his sweet scent. He smelled of menthol and strawberry."My family went to France, they are gone." I said, having a hard time bearing this fact.Tom moved away from me, placed his hands gently on my face and lowered himself closer to me "You have me dear, I will be your family now." he said in his sweet voice.I felt my heart return to folding again, with a lot of love for this man. I looked at his beautiful eyes and I smiled and let out a small giggle. He left a mark on my lips and I never wanted him to take them off me.

He extended his hand towards me and asked, "So, do we want to go back to our house." I looked at his hand and then back at him. "Ours?" I thought it sounded cute. I took his hand and we walked towards Bill.We got to the door where Bill was standing, and Bill put his arms around me and said, "You're fine, thank God." I moved away from him and smiled at him. Bill opened the door for me and Tom and we headed back towards the exit of the building.