From cameras to your heart

Chapter 26

Inaya sat on the bed, numbness surrounding her body as she recalled all the words Aditya just spoke to her a few hours ago.

"Why are you behaving this way inaya?"

Yes why was she behaving this way? Maybe because in the process of finding her happiness in Aditya she lost the sence of her own value, the sense of her own worth and what she meant as a whole.

"I clearly told you on the first day of our marriage that it will be difficult for you."

Yes he did, he did tell her. Was she so stupid to look past what he said that she still gave her heart to him.

"I gave you a choice but you decided to go for it, you decide to attach yourself with me when you knew how busy I am."

Yes she did attach herself to him when she knew he was not capable of giving her what she needed but maybe that was because she could not control it. She never got this type of love and affection form anyone before, and this affection that she got from her husband made her crave for more.

"Don't forget inaya, I gave you a choice and it was you who decided to proceed. We both got married willing and we both knew what we wanted from this marriage. I am a busy person inaya, I can't be giving explanations to you for every little thing that happens, I have a lot of other work to focus on. I know, I know that I might be at fault, I might not be the husband you want, that you deserve, but remember you knew this would happen and you chose this for yourself. I'm sorry for making you feel bad, for making you cry, I'm trying but I can do that till a certain limit."

His each word rang in her ears like a continuous rant.

"I can't just leave all my work to make you happy"

It hurt, it hurt so bad that she could not stop the pain in her heart that she felt physically. It was too much for her. The tears did not stop nor did the pain she felt in her chest.

Her body shook as she broke down into heavy sobs. Tears streamed down her face wetting her lashes, the white saree she was wearing crumbled beneath her as she placed her knees closer to her chest and hugged her legs trying to calm herself down because she knew no one would do that for her now.

No body did it before and when she thought she finally found someone who would do it, she lost him or he was never her's in the first place. Maybe he never felt what she felt for him. Maybe it was just a normal contract that he was trying to fulfill. Maybe he did whatever he did as an obligation to comprehend the reason they got married for. An agreement, afterall their marriage was based on an agreement and he was just trying to comply by it.

Breathe inaya breathe

Taking in long deep breaths she tried to steady herself but nothing helped. The more she though about what he said the more she cried.

She could feel her head spinning and her whole body shaking just when mrs Sharma entered the room.

"Inaya" her voice boomed in the whole room as she saw inaya's condition. She was sitting on the bed shaking like a leaf with tears streaming down her face.

She immediately came to the bed and hugged inaya tightly as she broke into another set of loud heart wrenching sobs.

Mrs Sharma patted her head trying to calm her down when she heard inaya crying out.

"Why can't he understand me" her tone held desperation for an answer that she knew Aditya would never give her. So she tried whatever she could to get the answer.

"I just want somebody to understand what I feel.....just for once"

"Why can't he just understand me.."