Life Within a Tarot Deck

Failed as a Mother

Mitsuki should have known this would happen.

Katsuki always vents his frustration and stress away by going to the training ground and blowing shit up, cleaning the house, or even cooking meals and she thought he was going to be ok. Never would she have thought that her eldest would have a fucking panic attack.

To add even more stress to her mind, not long after Izuku started to get one once something clicked in his mind after what Katsuki had mentioned about him dying before passing out. She dreaded that day would come to pass, but she hoped to God that he would not remember that he died or how he died.

Fate sure does like to piss the blonde female off.

She had to separate the two and Izuku was currently with Ophelia while he was trying to understand what had happened. He is pissed, and she had only seen that look on him that time with the Sludge Bastard over a year ago. Mitsuki doesn't blame him one bit, they kept that secret from him, and with the trust he had lost from that bitch, it must have been a blow. She can only hope he will understand.

Mitsuki sighed as she put a fresh towel over her eldest's forehead, tear streaks still etched on his face and it hurt her. She failed as a mother, she should have known he would have PTSD. He saw Izuku's death at close range, his emotions were at their peak at that time and he was frantic. Then the weeks while Izuku was away with Ophelia she could tell her son couldn't sleep a wink until he made sure the Mochi was safe. A few times herself she caught him crying late at night, and just let him be, believing that he is strong and will pull through this.

If she still gets flashbacks of that scene, why the hell would she think her eldest wouldn't?

A knock was heard and Izuku walked into the room. "H-hey, Momma. How is Kacchan?"

Mitsuki internally sighed as she heard that, indicating that he still trusts her. "Katsuki is still unconscious, it is to be expected since this was his first one." She grazed the blonde's bangs away from his eyes. "I should have expected he might get them, how can I be a good mother if I failed both of ya."

Izuku sat on the edge of her brother's bed. "I never thought he would have a panic attack either, he seemed so strong. Yet, you said he saw me d-die? Kacchan was there when it happened?" Mitsuki nodded and looked at the verdanette as his stomach boiled in anger again, his stubs briefly turning red. He scrunched up his face to curb the feeling. "I guess I can understand somewhat, but it still hurts that you lied to me."

"I didn't want to, Mochi, and neither did Katsuki. However, when we found out you had memory loss Katsuki asked us to not say anything." Izuku's eyes widened and looked at his brother. "Don't be angry with him, he was there and it traumatized him. If you two were switched, would you have the heart to tell him?"

Izuku gave it some thought and realized she was right. If the roles were switched, and Kacchan did not remember the event he too would have kept it from him. He rather sees his brother happy than give him more nightmares.

"This has eaten him for so long, how could he hold all of that in?" Izuku said finally, "Then again, I held my demons for so long out of fear and I was constantly told I was just a piece of-"

"Don't, Izuku. We understand that after what had happened you did what you had to do to survive. You are here with us now, and nowhere near that bitch." Mitsuki replied and gave him a light tap on the cheek. "To be honest, he would probably have kept that in a little longer if the video hadn't triggered him that way. According to what I saw, it was almost too similar to what he witnessed."

Izuku sighed. "Am I a bad brother? I didn't tell him what happened, should I have told him? Am I nothing but a fail-itte!"

Someone flicked Izuku's forehead hard and the verdanette rubbed it to get the stinging sensation to stop. "If you call yourself a failure one more time, Izu, we are going to have a VERY long talk."

"K-Kacchan!"

"How are you feeling, Katsuki?" Mitsuki asked, giving her eldest a glass of water. He drank it down in one go.

"I feel like I got hit by a fucking train." He grumpily said, but then looked at his brother with a soft expression. "How are you able to deal with this shit when it flares? I felt like I was going to die."

Izuku chuckled and looked down. "Well, since it was your first time and it was a hard trigger it is a normal reaction, especially if you don't know it was one. However, for me it is not that easy. You know the few times I had a meltdown when I was here? Sometimes I am able to control and think of something else, but if it is followed by depression or negativity it takes longer or it goes haywire."

"I don't want to feel that again. Next time you have one, let me know by text, call, or whatever, I don't want you to be alone during this, no matter how mild or severe."

Izuku nodded. "You should follow the same advice, I know I already have a lot but you need to let me know too. Or Eevee, which you will need to apologize for since she was deathly worried about you."

"Fuck, I didn't mean to scare Fennec. I am such a prick."

Mitsuki hugged Katsuki and he embraced the feeling. "You aren't a prick, I have met quite a few in my years and you ain't one of them, so get it out of your head. She is still spending the week, so you can make it up to her. I hear she loves cheesecake."

Katsuki chuckled. "Heh, Ok, one Pumpkin Cheesecake coming up."

"I need to apologize to both y'all."

The brothers looked at their mother and saw that she looked remorseful. "As a mother I should be there to care for you and help you in need, but I failed you both."

"Don't even try that, Hag," Katsuki growled, giving a deadpan look. "You went above and beyond what a mother should do. If it weren't for you, Izuku wouldn't be here with us, if it weren't for you I would have probably been more of a jackass."

"Kacchan's right, Momma. You saved me from that rabid dog 6 years ago, and you were there at the hospital refusing to leave our sights even when you were hurt." Izuku then chuckled as he remembered something Ophelia told him during the trial. "Did you really try to kill her?"

Mitsuki bristled. "Fuck yeah, I did and I would have succeeded too if they haven't chosen to send her to Blood Prison."

The trio laughed, the mood now lightening after the ordeal, and not long after Eevee ran in and pounced on Katsuki in her Fox Form and cried her eyes out, causing the blonde to feel even more guilty with those sad eyes. She then snuggled under his chin and like what Izuku said, come to her whenever he feels stressed.

"Thanks, Eve." Katsuki said gratefully, giving her a hug and a forehead kiss.

Mitsuki chuckled. "Get a room, brats!"

That brought Katsuki's temper back. "How about you get out of MY ROOM!!"