Due to the severity of his panic attack, Mitsuki had to admit Katsuki to a psychiatric facility for re-evaluation of his mental health and medicine. The blonde was a wreck when he was admitted, his mind blank yet blaming him for things he couldn't control and the flashbacks of every fuckup that caused his brother pain. His mind was sent to a dark place, and for the second time, one sentence penetrated his mind.
I shouldn't even exist anymore.
That scared him even more than the deaths and near-deaths he had seen, breaking down on the way there with his mom, trying hard to console him even though he knew he had scared her too when he confessed that he didn't want to live. It was so despairing, so...debilitating, he couldn't think at that time and he didn't know what to do. When Mitsuki got him to the ER, she requested a mild sedation and suppressant for him until they had a room for him. He remained in the ER for about two hours before they wheeled him to the psych ward.
Once the sedatives started to wear off, his mind went back to Izuku, anxiety increasing as he had no clue where the hell he went and he kept asking the nurses there if they could either contact Mitsuki or let him know if or when Izuku was found. It wasn't until 8 at night that a nurse came in and let him know that Izuku was found safe and with family. That had dropped a massive boulder off his shoulders now that he knew where Izuku was, and that eased his mind some more. He still requested to have some sedation so he could have a dreamless sleep before continuing the plans that his mind was starting to make. A clearer mind would be better than one that was fogged by stress and fear.
When class resumes for them, he plans to be reassigned to 1-B class and have one of them transfer to 1-A. That way he and Izuku would have some space, at least for the verdanette as he knew he was suffocating his brother. It may do the blonde some good too, giving space and letting Izuku do what he needs to do.
Another thing he had already asked his mom about was to look for a psychiatrist who may help him be more open to what was causing him a lot of stress and eventually give him the courage to reveal the dark secrets that he was keeping. His stomach jolted as a fear of anger and rejection made itself known but he would worry about that later.
He would be here for at least a week, that is given. However, depending on how Katsuki progresses, he may be able to leave in time for the trial of Ass Might. That fucker needs to be put into the deepest parts of hell at Tartarus after what he did to Izuku and many others he may have branded or used. Hell, even Blood Prison would fit better for the geriatric prick. Seriously, that guy was a pedo through and through, and he was able to get away with it because he was a fucking No. 1 Hero and he put up a good facade. Not for long.
He sighed as he knew that this court hearing would focus on the attack on his brother, who is already at a minimum of 10 years in federal prison. Everyone in 1-A will testify against him, even that possessive chipmunk who got demoted. She better behave or Eevee will go feral. Six months to a year later, the real torment begins, and it would affect everyone who suffered such a fate.
Izuku and Victoria are survivors of his ring, and now that Izuku regained his memories he is a key witness to bringing him down. He would need to be safe until the final curtain of Ass Might so the fact he is with the Dragneel until then gives the blonde some relief. They would protect him when they sensed trouble, so Izuku would not be smothered by them. After the assault trial though, UA will protect him when the Pro Hero courses resume.
Katsuki growled as he wrote the plans in his journal, eyes glaring into space as visions of a monster appeared in his head, chained and bound while he faced the Dance of Death. No one, not even that asshole King Pin, would be able to save the pedo's ass.
Once the notes were written, he sighed and looked up at the white ceiling. His stomach churned at the memory of him wanting to end his life, and it felt like shit. How did Izuku deal with several years of this and continue to survive when he lost his mind with just a thought?
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Life Within a Tarot Deck
FanfictionIzuku is at the breaking point where he was about to end it all. The abuse from home, at school, and no one to believe him that he needs help was too much to bear. What if someone suddenly hears his cries, yet they were the instigator? Will things m...
