Beyond the Facade
“Are you sure anak na kaya mo ng magtrabaho ulit?” my mom worriedly ask while making my coffee.
“I actually want to stay here para mabantayan at maalagaan ko muna ang anak ko at para makapagpahinga na rin muna for awhile, but my manager told me that I really need to attend the meeting today, the meeting will discussed the upcoming release of the movie” I gave her a glance after I explained.
“You don’t have to worry about Szhen, I will take good care of her. My concern is you anak, nasa iisang trabaho lang kayo ni Wayde, sigurado ka bang kaya mo nang humarap sa kanya?” inabot nya sa akon ang kapeng itinimpla nya at umupo sa tabi ko.
“I don’t have any choices tho but you don’t have to worry about me mom, I can handle this” I assure her and gave her a smile.
I take a sip of coffee and as usual she made my coffee a little bit bland, she knows I drink coffee a lot and she always reminds me that so much coffien is not good for my health.
“I know you are such a brave woman, anak. You became bolder and stronger as time passed by, I’ve witness that with my bare eyes. You are even stronger and braver than me, things that I will be forever be proud of. Sobrang saya ko na hindi ka nagmana sa akin na sobrang hina.”she states as she held my hands and gently massaging it.
“Maybe we just have different level of pain tolerance, mom. The life situations and struggles made me bolder and stronger. The environment that I had helps also a lot. Perhaps, you keep on saying that you are not as brave as me but surely I can tell that you are the bravest person that I ever met, you are brave enough to endure all the pain that you’ve been through for the sake of the people that you love. And I’m so proud of you, mom.” mahabang lantiya ko at ni yakap si mama, I hug her as tight as I could.
“Sige na anak, baka ma late ka pa sa meeting mo” she said while wiping her tears and cut our hug.
“Aalis na po ako mom, just call me po if may mangyari rito sa bahay” pagpapaalam ko at kinuha na ang shoulder bag na dadalhin ko. I take a sip of my coffee again before leaving.
Pagkalabas at pagkalabas ko ng bahay ay mabilis akong naglakad papalabas ng subdivision na tinitirhan namin para maghanap ng masasakyan. I can’t use my car today dahil inaayos pa ito, ang sabi sa akin ay tatawagan lang ako ng kompanya kapag okay na ang kotse ko.
Pagkalabas ko ng subdivision ay hindi na ako nahirapang sumakay dahil may taxi na agad na dumaan. Binigay ko lang ang location na pupuntahan ko at pinagpahinga na ang mga balikat ko habang suot-suot ang earphones ko. Ang aga-aga pa ngunit ang bigat na ng pakiramdam ko, I don’t know why I’m feeling this way. Marahil at hindi ako nakatulog ng maayos kaka-isip sa mga maaring mangyari. Kabado ako sa mga susunod na ganap sa buhay ko, natatakot ako sa kung ano man ang maaring mangyari. Sa ngayon, hindi pa ako handang makita si Wayde dahil hindi ko alam kung masasagot ko ba sya ng maayos kapag nagtanong sya tungkol kay Szhen.
Lumipas ang ilang minuto at nakarating na ako sa network namin. Agad akong bumaba at sumakay ng elevator papunta sa ika-walong palapag kung saan eh h-held ang meeting namin.
Pagkarating na pagkarating ko sa venue ay agad kong natanaw si Wayde na naka-upo na sa harap. Mabilis naman akong umupo sa natitirang upuan upang hindi maka-agaw ng pansin sa kanila.
“Okay, since everybody is already here, we can now start our meeting”
Pagkatapos magsalita ng aming director ay saka pa lamang nag angat ng tingin si Wayde. Nagtama na naman ang mga mata namin ngunit ngayon hindi na ako umiwas. Kitang-kita ko ang mga mata nyang puno ng katanungan. His deep blue eyes never fail to mesmerize me, I’m drowned in the depths of his eyes. I can’t deny the fact that I’m still longing from his presence. The contact that we’ve made stays for awhile before I cut it off. Hindi ko kaya, hindi ko pa rin pala talaga kaya.
The meeting last for about 40 minutes, after the meeting they announced the date of the releasing of the movie and congratulates us. They also announced the after party celebration that will be done after the release of the production. I can’t recall what are the other agendas and topics that our director and producer discussed because Wayde’s presence makes me so uncorfortable, I can’t concentrate because of him.
Right after the meeting I recieved a call from my car assurance company, according to them my car is already fix and I can already take it now so I immediately headed my way there.
As I’m walking down to their lobby, someone tap my shoulder. I turn my head to see who was it and surprisingly saw a familiar face.
“Yes?”
“Azh? Right? Can you still remember me?” he answer while painting a sweet smile on his face.
I was trying to recall where did I met him and who is he when he voluntarily introduce himself.
“Justine, from the club. Remeber that unforgettable night?” he says
“Ahh, yuh. It was you, now I remember. Ang pangit naman ng term mo.”
“Term? The unforgettable night ba?”
“Yuh, ang weird pakinggan”
“Weird or you’re just thinking something wrong with that? Ypu’re here, Why you’re here by the way?”
“Bakit bawal ba?” sarkastikong tanong ko
“No, no... It’s just—”
“Kukunin ko lang ang kotse ko, ikaw ba? Nagpa-ayos ka rin ba? Or bibili ka ng kotse?” pagputol ko sa kanya
“Ah, yeah. Magpapa-ayos rin—”
Naputol ulit ang sasabihin nya ng may lumapit sa amin.
“Ah, sir. Sorry for intruding to your conversation but I really needed to remind you that you have a conference now and we we’re running late. Nasa taas na ho ang mga bussiness partners nyo” the lady state
“Sige, susunod ako” he said and the lady nodded as response at umalis na. Binaling nya uli ang tingin nya sa’kin.
“I’m sorry I have to go, see you around, Azh” tanging sabi nya at nagpaalam na.
Nagsinungaling pa talaga. Shocks, akala ko taong kanto lang, I never thought na sya pala ang nagmamay-ari ng kompanyang ’to. Wala sa itsura nya ganon din sa pag-uugali, masyado syang down to earth makitungo ng tao. Owner pala ’yun ng company na ’to tapos ginanon-ganon ko lang. Shocks ka Azh.
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