Make It Right

Chapter 30 If Only I had a Choice

"Ha?? In conclusion, you misunderstood her!?" Ai'Frame exclaimed in surprise, his eyebrows furrowing intensely. They looked deeply focused and visibly taken aback as I finished narrating the shocking incident. Their reaction mirrored someone who had little energy left...

"Oh....why did I miss this...I'm stupid...stupid, moron, buffalo brain! Damn!!! Woii!!!" I hit my chest and beat my head in an unbearable way....it was really unbearable..

It's not enough that you're a crazy person who doesn't even know your girlfriend's own brother, but on top of that, you jump to conclusions and let your imagination run wild without seeking the truth or directly asking her. If I had the courage to face the truth from the beginning, things probably wouldn't have escalated into such a terrible outcome like this...

Hmm, I took a deep breath, inhaling and exhaling forcefully with intense anger and self-hatred. If that ai'frame doesn't quickly stop me from hurting myself, I might end up shedding more than just tears.

Since I discovered the whole truth, I have no inclination or desire to do anything at all. The overwhelming sense of wrongness has engulfed me to the point where I can barely stand. Even the enthusiasm to cheer for the football game has vanished. I simply have to retreat and escape from it all.

"You better stop acting crazy and calm down. Come here... Sit on this soft bed and relax. Just stay calm, no need to panic." Frame pulled my wrist, urging me to get up from the room floor before dragging them and sticking them onto the bed. I let out a sigh of frustration as they had been bothering me since the moment they touched me, feeling slightly annoyed. (With this feeling, I couldn't help but feel annoyed). However, I didn't know what to do to surpass their strength and vigor more than my friend. So, I just let it go and followed along...

"I don't want to calm down at all. It... oiiyy ! I don't know what to do with everything, damn it! It's giving me a headache, damn it!" In the end, I collapsed onto the bed, trying to shut myself off from the outside world. But where could it be done? If my brain keeps thinking about various things without stopping..

Almost everything in this room is a memory between me and Jean. Whether it's the notebook with sketches of the two of us that she gave me on our one-month anniversary, the white pillowcase with the words "handsome and wealthy" while "beautiful and cute" for Jean, or the album we just recently created with three volumes... The front covers are made of delicate carved wood, spelling out "Fuse ♥ Jean" in beautiful letters.

Despite having everything around me all the time, I somehow managed to forget these good stories.

ทั้งๆ ที่ทุกอย่างอยู่รอบตัวตลอดเวลาแท้ๆ ผมกลับลืมเรื่องราวดีๆ เหล่านี้ลงไปได้ยังไง

I can't blame anyone else for it. It's because of my own actions... and in the end... it has come to a point where there's no way to fix anything anymore. Jean hasn't done anything wrong at all, but I became someone who is unwilling to trust her, the person who loves me wholeheartedly and gives everything unconditionally. It's me, being dishonest by having someone else hidden away, and on top of that, I even tried to throw the blame on Jean for something she didn't do.

As I recalled the vivid image of Jean's radiant smile, I almost bit my own lips tightly, causing blood to nearly trickle down. Today, while my face was pale and devoid of color, she still showed concern for me, expressing it fully by attempting to take care of everything. She bought my favorite snacks and kept asking if I was okay throughout....

And then... all the time How could I destroy her good intentions? If China finds out that Ai Tee and I have that kind of relationship How sad will she be? The worst is.... I even thought about breaking up with her.