Whispers of Hope ✓

CHAPTER 33

ISHITA POV....

Joshua just left from here? W-what did he just say? Don't come closer? Stay away? Why he just said these words? Am I that bad that everyone just leaves me alone? I never saw Joshua like this. This is the first time I saw him like this miserable. He looks like I did something with him. Pain, sorrow, hurt, scared and regret.....I saw the regression in his eyes. Did he regret anything regarding marrying me?

"Don't take stress dear. He must be in some tension due to business. Don't worry about him." I came back from my thoughts when Mom gave me a glass of water. Tear escaped from my eyes as I hugged her tightly and started to cry. Cry like a child. Cry in front of my mother. His statement is roaming around in my head and my head is hurting by thinking all these. I broke the hug and look at mom as she is wiping my tears.

"M-mom, am I th-that bad? Why he....he said that to...me? Am....I....that bad? Mo-mom? What did I do that I saw the regret in....in his...eyes....?" I started to speak in hiccups and she is trying to soothe me by rubbing my back.

"Ish dear, you are thinking too much right now. You are tired. You go to your room and sleep for some time. Don't take tension of Joshua, he will be fine." Mom said and I was about to speak when mom stopped me before I say

"Don't say anything. Just go and sleep. Joshua might be in his office." She said and I nodded my head. I went inside my room and lay on the bed. I am feeling scared now. I don't know why he reacted this way but I want him with me right now.

'I am scared Joshua, please come back. I am feeling lonely here. Please don't leave me alone.' I murmured myself and drifted to sleep.

JOSHUA POV.....

I never in my dreams imagined that I will marry my own sibling. Why God, that you have to make her my sister, of all people why her? To whom I loved, I cherished, I married is my own sister. Fuck man Fuck....Now I am regretting it why I even met her, why I even married her? My head will burst if I think about this more. I saw Ish's face, she was hurt because I hurt her with my words. I promised her that I will never leave her alone but now I am thinking of my promise which I did was now wrong. Her innocent face is still coming in front of my eyes. Her smile is the purest. She already suffered so much.

I am in a bar right now and drinking. I never came here but today, everything changed. My relation with Ish, my marriage with her, my happiness, my life everything. By thinking all this I finished another glass of whiskey. I am not into these things but.......

"Sir the bar is closed." One of the waiters informed me.

"No, I...don't want...to go...home....I....I....wa-want one...more...drink..." I said giving him a glass

"Sir but the bar..."

"Don't you know who I.....am? If....I want...I will buy this bar...as well....Now....fill my glass" I shouted on him and he filled my glass which I drink in one go.

I don't know what I am blabbering. I am seeing Ish's beautiful smile. Why? Why she has to be my sister? Why? I shouted and started to cry. I can't control myself more.

I paid the bill and came outside. I stopped the cab and told him the address. It's not safe driving in this situation. I took out my phone and saw Ish pic which is my wallpaper. I started to caress her face in my mobile phone.

"Sir we are here" He said and I gave him 5000 pesos. He was saying something but I waved my hand in front of him and came out from the cab. I am so drunk that I can't even walk properly. I just drown myself in alcohol so much.

It's night here but I don't know what is the exact time. I ring the door-bell and I lean on the wall because I couldn't stand properly. In a sec the door pushed open and I saw my beautiful lady is standing. She looks worried but I smile.