Maybe This Time

Fights and Future

I've been pretty shitty mentally and emotionally. Not dealing with the grief of losing my mom. Right now I'm drinking and smoking a j. Sitting in the backyard. "Y/n, what are you doing?" Kaitlyn asks walking over to me. "Everyone's worried about you, dude" she says, reaching for the smoke and joint. I pull away harshly "d-don't fffucking touch it" i slur, gulping down the rest of the drink and taking a few hits of the Joint.
"Y/n would you stop for 2 fucking seconds" Kaitlyn says, grabbing the joint from my mouth and throwing it in the pool. "What the fuck was that for?" I shout standing up wobbly. "Let's go inside, yeah?" Kaitlyn says, going to grab my arm. "Don't fucking touch me" i mutter pushing her hands away from me. "Look, I understand how you feel to lose your mom. Mine might not be in the same situation but I still lost one" she admits, trying to show empathy. "No, you're mom didn't love you and she left. Mine died. They're not the same" i mumble, walking around the pool. "Why are you being such a dick? I'm just trying to be there for you." She yells, throwing her arms up. "Did I fucking ask you to? Get off your high horse" I yell back slurred. "She was my mom too, y/n" she says back, eyebrows furrowed walking inside. I sigh deeply, feeling regret for my actions but I'm also too drunk right now to worry about it. "Fuck" i mutter, throwing the empty bottle at the tree. I slowly stumble my way there, running my fingers over the marking we made over all the years being here. "I miss you mom, please let me know you're still here" I mumble leaning my head against the tree. I feel something land on my hand and I look down, seeing a beautiful dark blue butterfly. "Oh shit" i mutter, watching it move along my hand. I carefully take a photo

I drag my way inside finding Kaitlyn. Feeling completely sober now. I go up to her and just wrap my arms around her waist, holding her tight. "I'm so sorry for being a dick" I mumble into her shoulder. "You don't deserve it" i add, pulling away. "Do you wanna work at the club with me? Let's get an apartment too" she says, pulling away to show me her laptop. "Let's do it" I admit, smiling lightly. "But first, I'm off to get tattoos" I smile menacingly

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